PAIN

It's gray and rainy out today...
seems like it's always gonna be this way...
I don't mind the Rain...
it just brings the Pain....
Punishing..Always... Intense..Never ending...
No so long ago .. I saw a picture of me.. so angry lookin it was..I sat in wonder as I knew I wasn't angry.. it was the pain... the Pain is drives away the smiles... and friends.. mates and spouses that don't understand...
It is a lonely world that no one really deserves to  have to live in...I've tried to explain it over and over all these years... alas in vain... it is still the Rain... the tears I  cry when no one is around to hear my loneliness ...
The tears fall like rain drops...soakin my pillow as I hide in my bed...tryin to find some comfort in the warm of my covers to drive away the chill of the cold  rainy day... i dream of yester year when life was better...I awake to the pain... knowin I must somehow...find the courage to continue one more Day...
 I struggle through the  Pain.. punishing..always..intense..never ending...I wait for the sunshine..that will give me the strength to smile...the sunshine that beats back the pain to a dull roar... always never ending... Pain...