I've thought about a lot of things I'd like to say... then my mind just goes off on some other tangent...some old overgrown track that aint been used in years...
who knows.. once I get my three wheel bicycle I'll just pedal off into the sunset... me and my doggy... maybe a tent and debit card... ya know that darn thing works all the way over in Kansas... so easy to spend ya money and never see it...wonder how far I could get before I blew a tenny shoe lol... end of the block... lol.. if I'm lucky...but I'm hopein i can enjoy it for a while...

I don't wanna be way dependent on other people... feed me... lol.. nope... my back gave me a taste of that round valintines day... jeeez... no fun at all...

Well I'm tempted to just take this cable box in today.. since i need a prescription refill and gotta use the gas to go to town anyway... gonna hate cuttin off my cable...

but hey at least this time the computer didnt' just blow up... yepp...last time it went poooofff and puff of smoke came out the fan and threw a breaker... completely fried... didn't smell like kfc eater...


guess I'll wait till the 29,, that way it'll be at least four years before I repeat myself lol.. oh well... lame attempt at homer..(humor)

seriously... everyday I come on here and sometimes i just sit cause I feel like I amongst friends... don't have to say nothing just be here... read a few journals...

sometimes I feel kinda outta place, disconnected cant find a way to communicate, so I just sit and be quiet...

I aint leavin cause I'm discouraged... it's cause sixty bucks a month is just too dam high livin on SSI... and it goes up double that in couple months... so hey...i'm cheep

Last eight years of our life has been learning how waistful we was when I had a job... lol.. boy we was needy at 30 and 40 thousand a year... try 11,000 a year lol... was less but then I aint gettin into the hassles of human resourses... (bein a white boy)... sorry if that sounds bad... I don't hate nobody.. beleive we should all be treated equal... but now our government... if ya been there you know what I mean...

if you aint... ya need to wake up...

boy this startin to look like a delete journal lol...

I'm proud to say I paid and pay taxes, and I aint ashame to use the provisions of those tax dollars to survive...feed my kids... hell I begg groceries sometimes.. and except hand outs... specially clothes and food offered my way lol...

I aint ashamed to be poor...

my daddy was poor... proud, clean upright fellow... people respected him cause he was as i try to be righteous without blame...

I'm a wanna be yankee, southern born and raised... deep south Mississippi, and Texas... left texas cause the fire ants and killer bees lol.. hey for reall had a nest of them bees in my yard ran em off with loud noise... think I just got lucky, then again so did the whole dang trailer court...

but the fire ants killed my dog... I cried.. and put out more poison... and it was just awful... them little critters done gone and migrated plum up to kansas... yepp seen em in a rest stop in Kansas... aint life grand... roches and fire ants...

did my mind wonder or what...

well it's 6 am... I've been up for a while... hopein to get to chat with a friend... I really like that chat thingy... cool beans..


oh yeah I'm really gonna miss you folks... take care of oneanother... more specially buddimuss ....

russ