Well lets see... it's wendsday... rite... think so... anyway
Miss my doc. appointments yesterday due to Ima... I'ma not drivin thirty miles on icy roads just to get poked and proded, and visit the vampire... not to mention how grumpy they get when my butt gets bigger...
That's not an intirely accurate statement... my butt... aint bigger... same size it was last time I was complainin about it followin me around...
Yepp... creepy feelin it's tryin to sneak up on me...
well i went from 68 to like 56 roung the belly... gee I can even squeeeze that big hinny into a size 50 pants... ohboy that's tight... i don't care for tight no more... sides it aint the fine lookin kind of hinny ya wanna stuff into them designer jean....
if ya aint laughin.... I'm rollin on the floor...
sometimes I wonder what the hell happen to me... I use to be so outgoing...don't know it that's the correct word... just I didn't hide all the time and whine... I stood on my own two feet and met life head on... I was so sure of myself... now I'm just not sure...
I mean jeeez i'm so fat... maybe My ex was rite... fat and ugly... well fat is ugly... least that's what they seem to push on T.V. use to wear my own kind of hat sort of speek, didn't care what ya thought..
my kiss my butt attitude is now... lackin in the how to be with other humans department... gotta do someting about all this hiddin in my room....
been dreamin about the ex and being married a lot lately... bugs the chit out of me... I mean jeez Deb broke my heart like no other... course after twenty five years I guess I couldn't expect to walk away uneffected... but hey eight years later... oh jeez feb 8 would of been our 33rd anniversary... yepp that must of been it... cause that was the nite I had those silly dreams... weird eh... sometimes I wonder if I'm hangin on to the good memeories too much... nawe... don't much think about Debb untill just last week...
I know this aint gonna sound rite... but a man needs more than just grandkids to live for...oh refraise that too kids and grandkids... although I'm hangin in here... sometimes I feel like I'm slippin... sometimes I just wanna give up... nuff all this fighin with my emotions... playin by the rules and still loosein... (crybaby)... yepp... but hey... I missed my therapist too cause of snow.. then he didn't make it in and I'm really out on a limb kinda like cause... gee
well that's all I gotta say about that...
i'm upset with myself cause my weight is up... and my scales say Er...can't seem to get a handle on my self control.... lately... my life is meaning less... a little... why do I do this... jeez...
Miss my doc. appointments yesterday due to Ima... I'ma not drivin thirty miles on icy roads just to get poked and proded, and visit the vampire... not to mention how grumpy they get when my butt gets bigger...
That's not an intirely accurate statement... my butt... aint bigger... same size it was last time I was complainin about it followin me around...
Yepp... creepy feelin it's tryin to sneak up on me...
well i went from 68 to like 56 roung the belly... gee I can even squeeeze that big hinny into a size 50 pants... ohboy that's tight... i don't care for tight no more... sides it aint the fine lookin kind of hinny ya wanna stuff into them designer jean....
if ya aint laughin.... I'm rollin on the floor...
sometimes I wonder what the hell happen to me... I use to be so outgoing...don't know it that's the correct word... just I didn't hide all the time and whine... I stood on my own two feet and met life head on... I was so sure of myself... now I'm just not sure...
I mean jeeez i'm so fat... maybe My ex was rite... fat and ugly... well fat is ugly... least that's what they seem to push on T.V. use to wear my own kind of hat sort of speek, didn't care what ya thought..
my kiss my butt attitude is now... lackin in the how to be with other humans department... gotta do someting about all this hiddin in my room....
been dreamin about the ex and being married a lot lately... bugs the chit out of me... I mean jeez Deb broke my heart like no other... course after twenty five years I guess I couldn't expect to walk away uneffected... but hey eight years later... oh jeez feb 8 would of been our 33rd anniversary... yepp that must of been it... cause that was the nite I had those silly dreams... weird eh... sometimes I wonder if I'm hangin on to the good memeories too much... nawe... don't much think about Debb untill just last week...
I know this aint gonna sound rite... but a man needs more than just grandkids to live for...oh refraise that too kids and grandkids... although I'm hangin in here... sometimes I feel like I'm slippin... sometimes I just wanna give up... nuff all this fighin with my emotions... playin by the rules and still loosein... (crybaby)... yepp... but hey... I missed my therapist too cause of snow.. then he didn't make it in and I'm really out on a limb kinda like cause... gee
well that's all I gotta say about that...
i'm upset with myself cause my weight is up... and my scales say Er...can't seem to get a handle on my self control.... lately... my life is meaning less... a little... why do I do this... jeez...
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