Oh gee I'm so stiff and achey... been some kind of cold here this weekend... I went and picked up the lawn mower my son was suppose to fix at school... It's a basket case...
heck It ran when I gave it to him lol... just needed the blade sharpen and balanced. lol... the took the motor off and broke the wind vain, or governor control... then he put it back together half way... left off the leaf adn trash guard gard gaard....dang that little thing a mogigga that keeps trash outt da motor some kinda way...
any who I got in his face about not finishing it, or at least I hoped to impress the need for finishing things you start and I get this blank stare, and " you worry too much dad"...
rite my lawmowers in pieces and I worry... dam I'm old... feel like I'm missin something... Hey this is kid number four remember aint egg zackly new... but kinda disappointin...
Okay I aint losin no sleep over it I move on... whinin lee... of course... well my old rider is in one piece lol till it gets warm.... then I gonna tinker till my hearts content... gonna rebuild the engine... new rings and gaskets... gonna make all the new gaskets myself .... give me somthing to do lol... and gonna sand the old thing down and give it a new paint job...
when I ride it i look like a gorilla ridin a trycycle lol... heck yeah it runs lol...but it's gonna run mo better and prettier too lol
I'm achin like i'm dreamin big time...
spent most my life dreamin... workin when I could from 12 till the disability hit... then I worked three more years...
work one of the many flaws thatwas beat into me as a kid... pullin weeds while a hoe handle busted my back, ooops sorry...old memories bite...
Hate hurtin this way all those memories of yester year flood my mind, hands and mind hurt from the past... all I got to show for it is alone...
there i go agin... sorry...
I'm gonna stop...now... same reason i didn't journal yesterday... pain is drivin me nutz... got Inspection today...I hate inspections... just because.. heck I pay the rent... hate people lookin over my shoulder.. and it's never good enuff.. reminds me of my child hood... never good enuff... you missed a winder or there's dust on the coffee table.. always something ... chit..
best wishes russ
gotta run...
heck It ran when I gave it to him lol... just needed the blade sharpen and balanced. lol... the took the motor off and broke the wind vain, or governor control... then he put it back together half way... left off the leaf adn trash guard gard gaard....dang that little thing a mogigga that keeps trash outt da motor some kinda way...
any who I got in his face about not finishing it, or at least I hoped to impress the need for finishing things you start and I get this blank stare, and " you worry too much dad"...
rite my lawmowers in pieces and I worry... dam I'm old... feel like I'm missin something... Hey this is kid number four remember aint egg zackly new... but kinda disappointin...
Okay I aint losin no sleep over it I move on... whinin lee... of course... well my old rider is in one piece lol till it gets warm.... then I gonna tinker till my hearts content... gonna rebuild the engine... new rings and gaskets... gonna make all the new gaskets myself .... give me somthing to do lol... and gonna sand the old thing down and give it a new paint job...
when I ride it i look like a gorilla ridin a trycycle lol... heck yeah it runs lol...but it's gonna run mo better and prettier too lol
I'm achin like i'm dreamin big time...
spent most my life dreamin... workin when I could from 12 till the disability hit... then I worked three more years...
work one of the many flaws thatwas beat into me as a kid... pullin weeds while a hoe handle busted my back, ooops sorry...old memories bite...
Hate hurtin this way all those memories of yester year flood my mind, hands and mind hurt from the past... all I got to show for it is alone...
there i go agin... sorry...
I'm gonna stop...now... same reason i didn't journal yesterday... pain is drivin me nutz... got Inspection today...I hate inspections... just because.. heck I pay the rent... hate people lookin over my shoulder.. and it's never good enuff.. reminds me of my child hood... never good enuff... you missed a winder or there's dust on the coffee table.. always something ... chit..
best wishes russ
gotta run...
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Russ, I pray your pain eases.....
Take care....
xoxoxo
I\'m sorry your in so much pain. Hope you get your mower back together. I need new blades on mine or sharpened and the deck aligned or something. But we don\'t know how to do those things so I\'ll have to save up some money to get it worked on. I remember when we lived in Navy housing and had inspections. That was horrible. I know how you must feel. My prayers are always with you. Big Hugs, Sharon
Hello my friend :o) Sorry to hear you feeling so bad. Pain is hard to take and it can bring out so much and my heart goes out to you knowing some of what you are going through. You know you don\'t have to ever say sorry for your journals, that is what they and we are here for and I seen between the lines sometimes. Just always knew you were a great caring guy with a heart of gold though!! We all fall down and this is a great place to help us stand up again. So happy we all found this place! I hope you know you mean as much to us as we mean to you!! There has been many days when you have broughts smiles to my face when I needed it the most and I thank you for being YOU and my friend!!
So you keep hangin on, just be YOU and keep on dreaming and tinkering, I love to do that you never know what you are gonna come up with and you have come up with lots of things you should be proud of!!
Something you could do for me...look around or just think of something that you have done, said, made, been a part of (etc, etc) that made you feel good, big or little..now pat yourself on the back and give yourself credit for being the great(creative,giving,caring) person you are and smile :o) :o) and know YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!! Repeat many times a day!!!
Hugs,
Michelle