Ya know maybe I'm just a crazy old coot..
Some times when I'm all achey and lonely... life just kinda floods back in and every mistake everybad decision like kicks my can...
Whats with this...
i don't reckon I'm all alone with this problem...
Didn't thumbody call it the Blues?
I mean basicly I'm happy... I feel at ease cause I think I did good... between me and the fence post... YEAH...
But Life was not good to me... it was lets say a challenge...
So anyoldwho... I vent sometimes, I sure don't mean to harp over and over on someting ... but face it I do... think they got a name for that too...
So I'm achey, grumpy, forgetful, hard of hearing, hard of headed,
I scratch where I itch, and I'm male... shade crazy and think I seen Nile.... heheheh get see Nile... boy tuff crowd...
But if I can smile... I make another day... so I make fun of my disability, my pain, my fat... oh did I tell ya I weight in at 400 pounds... that's huge folks and I hate it on me... I'm very unhappy being this FAT...
I'm learning to deal with it... like all my other problems...
so I'm just sayin sorry I wag my finger about the same old same O... Ya'll all been mostly nice to me...
I fall down sometimes... mentally several time a month really... try to hide how insecure I really am... how little I feel... yepp sometimes just plain darn worthless... speciall when folks tell me to get a job lol...
thanks to my friends here on DS, I hang on... this has been a great place for me...
THANK YOU ALL
best wishes Russ
Some times when I'm all achey and lonely... life just kinda floods back in and every mistake everybad decision like kicks my can...
Whats with this...
i don't reckon I'm all alone with this problem...
Didn't thumbody call it the Blues?
I mean basicly I'm happy... I feel at ease cause I think I did good... between me and the fence post... YEAH...
But Life was not good to me... it was lets say a challenge...
So anyoldwho... I vent sometimes, I sure don't mean to harp over and over on someting ... but face it I do... think they got a name for that too...
So I'm achey, grumpy, forgetful, hard of hearing, hard of headed,
I scratch where I itch, and I'm male... shade crazy and think I seen Nile.... heheheh get see Nile... boy tuff crowd...
But if I can smile... I make another day... so I make fun of my disability, my pain, my fat... oh did I tell ya I weight in at 400 pounds... that's huge folks and I hate it on me... I'm very unhappy being this FAT...
I'm learning to deal with it... like all my other problems...
so I'm just sayin sorry I wag my finger about the same old same O... Ya'll all been mostly nice to me...
I fall down sometimes... mentally several time a month really... try to hide how insecure I really am... how little I feel... yepp sometimes just plain darn worthless... speciall when folks tell me to get a job lol...
thanks to my friends here on DS, I hang on... this has been a great place for me...
THANK YOU ALL
best wishes Russ
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I count it a blessing to know you on here. Vent all you want. That is what our journals are for. Hope you have a beautiful day.
Russ....You are what keeps me going sometimes...just reading your entries makes me smile and I know how tough it can be to live with all your problems and yet you still try to smile that is huge for someone, so keep venting and remember you so have friends here and else where....love you
Honey, we all fall at times....that\'s why it\'s so good to have friends, and those who understand....
Wish you had my Therapist!! She is really, really good....She has taught me the Need of Self Care....you need to exercise more self care and give yourself more credit....
You can really be a JOY, you know.........:)
xoxoxoxo
I totaly agree fat isnt fun to carry around.Neither is the blues and sometimes we gotta talk about it and get it off our shoulders.
Self care is a wonderful way to begin the year.Be persistant exercise everyday it will get those pounds down so that you can physicaly feel better.
It dont cost a thing to walk drink lots of water and eat smaller meals.It will make a smaller you.
Friends understand thats why we are friends we all have our low days.Dont feel bad about having them were only human.
HUGS!
Rachel