Well the breathin exercise worked well... took two asprin and slapped on my old nasal pillow... and chin strapp... over two years and i still can't sleep with my mouth closed unless i use a strap... home grown too no exspensive chin strap do the job... mine is made out of denim... no stretch...

so hey... I fell asleep for about three hours... man just rite snoozin... that bed is so nice... woke up feelin much better...but I couldn't get to sleep last nite till about 12:30 or 1 am.... then i did another two hours of better... had nightmares...

I came to the conclusion yesterday, that this world is plum crazy... It's fifty / fifty... but lots of folks don't like who they are... course I know them folks just wanna sell something. but hey...

I'm tired of male enhancement commerical...vi va la bullchit... yepp...

when ya get older ya suppose to slow down... not floor it jeeez... old model cars are call classic for a reason... well I suppose ya could call male enhancements hot roddin....(snicker) ya just might blow a gasket too.... lol...

it's just everywhere you switch with the remote, there's a half naked girl... young and beautiful, or a guy dancin in his undies... yeah sure we all look like this... they don't tell ya about how they gonna charge ya extra for the X's next to the large on the undies tho do they...

well one thing for sure, if I starved myself and got back down to a 32 size blue jeans... at my age with my disabilities... and cornsidering the extra wear and tear along with the mileage I already done... HEY a fellow can dream can't he.... no.... dam....

Sex. Money and Cars...
They all go fast... lol...
tell me it aint so...
AAHHHHhhhhh... i'm done
I'm broke...
I'm outta gass...

I took my (insert name of enhancements) and my hair got stiff...,My eyes got blurry..., and I can't feel my lips....
but my blood pressure is down... is that the ground comin up so fast...? this is fun...

oh I'm laughin my ass off .... woody would pecker lol.... oh iam bad... BAD!

Hey say good by to grey.... rite... at 6 bucks a pop. and who's gonna clean up that messin the bathroom... Wowsers... this stuff smell like poop... ya gonna put that on ya hare... I mean hair... okay brush it on ya beard and wait five minutes... rinse... Wat... it rinsed out dang do it over... dang this stinks... why everyting so fuzzy lookin... oh yeah.... HHHHhhhhhhhhmmmmmmm........ ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

Oh gee... it's cold sleepin on the bath room floor... ouch... now i forgot what I was doin...

Actually I found a way to get ridd of the grey in my beard... shave it off.... hehehehe... now my face is naked lol... tommorrow it be a cactus... face...

Hey I'm sorry... Just that eversince i can remember my life has been filled with pain... so when i blog like this it's just a way of avoidin thinkin about the pain..
nope I don't have any pain meds...
It's tuff to bully my way thru most the time...
It was really bad yesterday... kind of pain make you...
Well anyway...the pain started when i was seven... I'm fifty five now... that's a long long time... so I get silly and write these worthless meaningless journals... so I can be close to someone that cares... that share a common bond... of hope and kindness...

I know I'm nothing special... God knows I wanna be... don't we all... wanna feel special... and all of you are so Special... to me... Just wanted ya to know, I get by with a little help from my friends...

To all my friends...Thank you for puttin up with me... I'm prayin you have a wonderful holiday... pain free... filled with love and laughter... Russ