Good Moanin Friends...
Thanksgiving was a wonderful day, spent with my two sons and my new family and friends.

It was a lesson in the fact that others need my friendship as much as I need friendship from others.
I use to think of myself as a good friend... it seems I may have been mistaken... see I'm not really such a good friend at all... Oh I'm nice I don't back stab, or talk about my friends behind their backs.
But I'm distance... still afraid to really get involved, are real close. I am a rock, I am an island... and a rock never crys... and an island feels no pain...(yepp simon and garfunckle) lol...

I've been a tad distance last few days.... cause I know I'm gonna loose my internet ability... Just a week away from the final payment of the bill, and the request to remove us from the cable and so on and so forth...

Then I move forward with hopes of finding a better computer with the proper program to cruise the internet in style, let me be more involved and inter into chatrooms... Yepp I hope to be back, I've been getting some wonderfully low priced internet offers from my telephone company and even AOL, who knew... yeah I was on A O L for like ever... they oughtta give me a year for free lol... keep on dreamin hehehehe... But none the less I'm formin a plan... and it's a long way to January yet...

I'm sorry I've been so distance... with holding my feeling, because it hard, leavin friends, and I'm afraid I've had to do this a lot in life...
I guess it's all part of a plan, to be there for someone, to make friends and then move on, kind of like pass it on... keep the kindness going... and be givin to random acts of kindness and love... and sharing smiles, and laughter... Lord knows I try... I'm a sponge for love... friendship and laughter...

I get nervous and talk too much, well once upon a time, in life now I am uncertain, as my hearing takes a dive for the worse every year... plus some folks don't like to be yellin and hollerin like HEY CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW!!! I FEEL LIKE A DRILL SARGENT... WAKE UP MAN... WHERES ME STICK I'LL GET YA ATTENTION....
mostly I get hi I'm and I we car back over
You betta, I miss a lot of what ya'll hear... so I ablibe and that aint good... it's a habit... I'm tryin to break... so now I ask WHAT YA SAY???? CAN YA SPEAK UP, I AM DEAF... hehehe well it sure gets their attention... for a few minutes...
any how being hearing impaired sucks big time... and it aint easy reading lips... some folks got nice and easy lips... ya almost know what they gonna say... others are motor mouths that aint no way to keep up without speed readin glasses.... and or a person that likes to talk to ya from behind ya... need a mirror to back sass these folks lol... back sass... oh gee... well

I got my eye on a new Dell with the Vista thingy mo giggie... spose to be the next big thing in windows like it let ya have ya cake and eat it too.... but I'm gonna have to miss smallville to pay for it... and eat more beans...

I think you can produce Methane gas by eatin beans brocolli and drinkin ten high whiskey... then you could use that to heat ya house rite??? See I'm frugle... Okay Frugle me... please... I need help... (last plea for sanity here...) later best wishes Russ