My grandpa told me once, that the meanest animal alive was a crocagator...
being seven I never heard of such an animal...
Watz a crocagator pa.... grandpa like to be called pa.
He said it was an aligator on one end and a crocadile on the other....
I thought about that for a while...
How do it go to the bathroom grandpa...
He just laughted and said that's wat makes him so mean....
Course this is the same fellow that called me one day and said since I was now a man he wanted to tell me something important...
HHHHHhhhhhhmmmmm.... cool old fart gonna tell me something important for a change... then he says if I go to a Whore house get the ugliest one there... Okay... least I know where my grandpa values lie... lay...geeesh...
Dang they closed the chicken ranch before I could save up enuff to go lol... okay I'm teasin... waisted my paychecks in the topless bars more than once... nope I aint ashamed of it... boys will be boys... and men, well we like that naked stuff... like old Jeff says give me a beer show me something naked... yepp... well once upon a time I reckon... now I'd tell the naked person go get me a beer.... lol... so I like beer... naked don't mean a lot anymore lol... unless ya wanna scare the hell ooutta somebody... yepp that'll work...
Spent most the moanin, thinkin about what makes us humans so human...then why we do so many stupid things before we get smart... old too soon smart too late...
I tend to feel like I played by the rules and still lost... tad bit cheated I reckon...
More I think about my marriage, I can't say my ex ever really loved me... or she didn't know what love is or was. or iswas..oh reilly.... yeah she liked sex but that aint love...well some folks tend to think it is love...
I tend to like sex but I don't mistake it for love...
Love is help with the dishes... pat on the back and told ya doing good even when the chips are down.... Love is standin by someone thru thick and then, allowing your partner to be themselves rather that what we think they oughta be... and hopin they give us the same trust and faithfulness in return...
well Love is a lot of most wonderful things, I aint got the brain enuff anymore to explain...
But it aint always like we want it... cause love is a two way street... take two persons to love.. one aint gonna do it alone... an most likely gonna wind up alone... yepp...
I miss love... the hubby and wife kind... got lots of love for my kids and grandkids and all my friends... so I aint without... just missin some of the intimate feeling of being with a person ya done bonded with... still aint sex okay... it's something more.... like the moonlite on a still pond or the sun shining thru the clouds and the rays make a golden curtain upon the sky... or even the feelin you get the first time ya realise you in love... kinda tingly all over...can't forget love... not once you had it in your heart....
Just a real bugger to try and get it back once it's been snatched away an ya feel like ya kicked to the curb...
Guess all I'm sayin is I miss bein loved by a woman... come to think of it I wonder if I ever was.... silly aint I... old fart like me got other fish to fry... and I'm whinin cause I feel lonely... yepp...
Well other than that... I'm just fine and dandy... for an old fart... aint life grand... best wishes Russ