Song song blue everybody knows one...
song song blue every garden grows one...
me and you are subject too..
the blues now and then....
I'm gonna sing some blues...
for my friends... well maybe....not...

Wat Ya'll think about this charity contest...
I mean it sure sounds so nice and all... we write a journal about this or that... and some body gets a small grant...

Wanna really know the truth... Me... I could use some charity lol... yeppers... nawe I aint teasin... being a non minority, male white boy... kicks my can... I got that eat chit and die attitude from the human resourse dept... denial blues mostin the time, cause the dang coon dogss wont hunt...

Car is broke down more times that it starts... Oh yeah I reckon I could write some sadd tail about how difficult it is to raise a kid alone with a disability and get less and less in assistance just because I'm a white male...
Aweee pooor little old Russ... sniff sniff...

Guess as you can see I aint all to friendly in the charity dept... I think the money be best spent sent to one them children hospital for families that aint got no money...
THAT' AINT GOT NO MONEY...
But that's just my opinion...

Heck ifins they found a cure for what ills me I wouldn't qualify for treatment... for real folks.. they find a way to chit on second class citizens... that all you flocks that worked and slaved and paid taxes out ya back side till ya dropped... and hey who the heck picked ya up huh???

Well I.... don't seem to be in such a good mood this moanin... brain seem to be swimmin around in dark water... way dark water... all cloudy with little turds of self doubt and cuss the world kinda stuff...

I keep tellin myself it aint no bodys fault... aaawwwweeee who am I kiddin... something made me the disable crazy old fool I've come to bee...

I'm just bent folks... been kicked around one to many times... sometimes I let the pain get control... that's a real kicker ya know... battlein against pain daily... never ending nasty naggin kinda chit that makes ya wanna go runnin naked thru the wheat feilds of ya mind... (yeah rite) i say naked cause ya can't have no secrets with no cloths on... kinda bare-N the soul sortta speek...

Like ya care lol... where the funny....

I say give the money to some thing where the marjority of it goes to the people that need it...
Feed the hungry, buy a bunch of shoes for kids that need em... feed some hungry kid here in the U.S. Yeah I'm into kids... Me I'm on my way out... face it... I aint scared of diein... it's part of life... I'm old and travelin down the final path...
Kids they just gettin started... so many of em need help...

I reckon If ya drove around any big city long enough you'd find children in need...
What about one them home for kids that aint got no parents... yepp i can't spell it... but I'd ask for a reciept... yepp... christmas is just around the corner...lots of kids gonna be alone and hungry and with out any love... aint that sad...

THINK KIDS DOUG... WONDERFUL. DELIGHTFUL. CHILDREN... THEY NEED SO MUCH AND GET SO LITTLE...

this has been a realy weird journal... but I think I'm thru. finished who knows.... read between the lines and think kids...

KIDS KIDS KIDS...

THANKS RUSS