Well geesh,
I get a most wonderful headache reading these journals...
Seems like even tho I've lead a most remarkable life... something is lacking... missing....gone.... kaputtsky...

Losin this fat butt aint fast enuff... so hard to tell with the water retention an all... never had water retention till these dang medicines i'm taking... I did some research, some of the meds I take are know to cause diebitics, however yaspell it. says it rare, but hey can't believe everyting U read

I workd for a forest commission once, down south in some far away land called Mississippi... we culled trees with a hatchet that enjected poison into the tree to kill it... Now on the side of these can was a warning bout how bad this stuff was and how not to come in contact with ya skinn, and don't be drinkin this stuff or, sniffin it...fact was handle with care... or parts be fallin off...

NOw my boss said awwwwweeeee.... it aint that bad, but ya never see him touchin the stuff....
any way ya fill this canteen looking thingy with this herbacide, aka weed killer... know in Vietnam as agent orange... yeppers it was... kill off the jungle like grab grass in ya yard .... then this canteen thing was connected to a hatchet by a hose and the hatchet had a little pump that would pump this cuddd into the tree when ya chopped a circle around the trunk of the tree... next day leave fallin off. dayafter that dead tree... big or small kaputt...

I worked with this stuff for several months, my hands were stained with it my feet where it leaked on my boots. Yepp it soaked rigth thru that leather my feet were stained... Oh yeah i earned a monthly salary of 420, after taxes which too 37% geesh... that was 1981,,, wow... I know for a fact that rattlesnakes (pigmy rattlers atleast) climb trees... yepp they doo... so do copperheads and a variety of other retiles I don't much care for...

Gee i so want to stay away from the grey area today... I aint been much of a friend to anyoone lately, just a burden whinin, lonely and confusedd...

maybe it's the new generic brand meds... suppose to be the same but hey, I don't feel the same, almost black out when I stand up, dizzy spells to die for, short of brreath more than i care for. Yepper all side effect of my meds.... so i ttry not to panic, call the nurse.... Nawwweee I've told em all about these pains and shortness of breath...


Well here I am again typein to myself...no wonder I'm confused... I'm in total denial, avoiding even thinkin about the problem, me is just the oppisite... worry worry worry, myself is whine whine whine... me, myself and I.... aint it a hoot...

What do I do for fun, well I enjoy cookin...i got outside and trimed my little tree in the front yard yesterday.. so guess I need to pick up the limbs and haul em to the trash bin...aka dumpster...

My big belly is a little smaller, slow but sure, my shorts fall off now it I don't wear a belt... use to pop the snap all the time... but hey lookin in the mirror I can't really tell, just a wart is gettin sunlite it never seenthe sunshine before lol... (help me I"m blinded)

Least my poot of the looms don't seem so stressed out..... :)
why do warts grow where the sun don't shine, are they of the mushroom family...? seriously, I wonder... never had warts before now geesh...datz bad talkin about wartz rite!!!

Well princess marksalot wants to go walk about...
Sorry if I bomb out too much, just a lonely old fart...
One day at a time......

Russ