Well I cleaned a five by fifteen foot section of the carpet... about a third of the living room... i went over it three times.... twice lol...

I got what they call a quick steamer, although it aint no steamer at all just squirts hot water from the tap, and suck it up with the dirt and it's nasty lookin...

Gosh I didn't know this was a white carpet... thought it twas browish something lol... well kinda funky white with brown and tan in it like it aint shag lol... just commerical appartment carpet. I'ts way old over five years since itt's been replaced... so I've been here this is my second year now... boy time flys...

I wanted to start working on my book, but dang old Compaq went on the blink... so now it's up in the air till I can buy another computer to use for my book... I don't want it on this one cause my son and his friends tend to mess it up...

Had all my Dll lines ereased, still got a URL problem, and windows aint doin no more upgrades, but they wanna sell me a 129 dollar new windows... Geeks will install it for another 60 dollars geeesh... I think this old world is geared to keep old farts like me off line... probably for the best cause no one got much use for a broke old fart like me any how... ahhhh don't...

I can face it...

I don't loose no sleep worrying about it no how... just grump here and there...

I tried to enter a free chat room lol... said minium wage had to be 25,000 a year lol.... wat a laugh... who cares if it's free... any way i was rejected lol. Kinda like e-homoknee lol... sixty buck a month for what... rejection lol.... gotta love it....

I made myself a tomatoe omlete, ya know two eggs in a skillet folded in half with two big slices of tomatoes in it... then I topped it off with my home made three bean chilli.... yepp it was goooood...no salt..

Supper gonna be chicken Fajita's, slice up some chicken breast... sure wish that fajita seasoning didn't have no salt but hey, I'll be lite with it on mine.. slice up some tomatoes, bell peppers and onion, and cook some of em for me leave em fresh for Doyle... I can't remember how he likes it... swuff aint I...

We use to have a pepper bush in our flower bed, it produced these little red peppers that would set ya world on fire... hey they would blister ya lips if ya wassnn't careful...

I know cause I cause a little chap to get burned by those peppers. I still feel bad about that today... course I was so old then like 10 maybee... I told this kid they was berries... Yepp I did I even ate one to show him they was good... Okay so I was a tough little bugger...

This kid grabbed one chewed it up good an spit it out and he rubbed his lips and face. Gosh I had no Idea....

His poor little face, hey he was like 8, so any who he broke out in blister everywhere he rubbed that pepper... so glad he didn't rubb his eyes...

I sure nuff thought his mom would bust my chopps but she said she could see I was really sorry, and let me go... but that hurt worse than a beatin cause I felt terrible...

Now next time I tricked a bully into eatin one those peppers hehehehehe I laught my butt off while he was runnin an foaming at the mouth... heck I laughed when he came back an kicked my tail...
At least he didn't rubb his face... Guess I pulled that pepper trick a few time... i called it payback...

Then again I tacked my principled chair in the seventh grade too .... hey when ya get the tar beat out of ya for nothing you start to do things so at least ya feel like ya earned a beatin lol... sad aint it... it was a dare...

all ya had to do was dare Deanie lol, I was crazy lol...

Well things are way different lately, I'm experiencing pains I never had before, they really kick too... got new bumps growing, when I show my doctors of say anything bout these pains all them specialist and docs. just look at me and well I'm not too impressed about this whole primary health care thing...

I'd like to ween myself off these drugs and let nature take it's course... i read and talk to people online that got good insurance, and they get sucked dry with test and pain meds, patches, you name it if the insurance covers it they get it...
i get squatt... I sure wonder what causeing this new pain in my right leg, feels like burning fire racing down my legg then like a thousand scropions stingin at the same time, and now I get this pain in my right side like some kind of lump and it aint happy...

So another day goes by... same ole same O....
So yeah I'm lonelily and scared a tad bit... but can't do a thing about it... so don't dwell on it...

I really feel like I'm on the way out sometimes, dam lonely feeling too, cause i can't talk to Doyle about it... I'm afraid it might cause him problems... he's got enough on his plate, sure hope I'm around for a few more years... I'd like to see him married and with a kid or two lol...
then I'd feel like lettin go... NAWWWEEE.... but hey...

Why I'm thinkin this line of thought...
I'm bet ya a dollar against a dougnut that K, having one of her not so good moments... i sure wish I could get in touch with her.... Well I'm still trying to think positive, maybe if she's down she might pick up on the hang in there attitude... one more day, things can change,

I invited her to DailyStrenght, I'm gonna go rattle her cage again.. see ya'll later.. i got to get my daughters attention ... Russ