Monday Moanday...
Pain level 6/7...
Allergy givin my right eye grief...

It's been a allaround fair weekend. I grilled brats(bratwurst sausages ) saturday, had two beers, and two naps lol... meds put me to sleep when I have a beer... so I took two naps saturday and sunday. yepp I had two more yesterday... My son grilled some bratbugers yesterday... his first time. He did all the grillin I sliced the tomatoes and got the cheese and lettuce ready.
Yummy... now I got to wait couple months before I can do the brats again...

Chicken, and ground turkey makes up most our meat eats lol... frozen chicken breast are easy to keep and cook... they make great chicken fajita's... seasoned with onion, bell pepper and tomatoe. I like to cook the onions, peppers and tomatoe along with the chicken... Yummy...

I'm doin beans today lol... three bean soup... pinto, greatnortherns and red kidney beans... gonna make some cornbread to go with em too...
Beans and cornbread had a fight, beans knocked cornbread outta sight...
Beans beans the musical fruit... the more ya eat the more ya toot..
the more ya toot the better ya feel... so eat them beans every meal...

Don't forget the BeanO's lol....
Watz that smell???

Guess I better break out that big tin of tuna... I buy the large industral can lol... then I make tuna salad, tuna and noodles lol... my son he told me he ready for Tuna lol...

That reminds me of an old friend I had on AOL, disable support chat room... we had everyone laughin and rollin on the floor with our Tuna humor... funny how you can meet someone online and be friends and never even meet... I kinda miss my online friends the AOL chat room buddies... I can't get into chatrooms now. well I found one, but since puter went down. I'm lackin the proper URL thingy to go places and do things. heck I can't even down load my pictures great.. huh...

Well no feelin sorry for myself... just a bit fuzzed out. looks like my neighbors sister shot herself, I feel for that family.... too bad people forget that deprression is a sickness and can't just be brushed aside by happy thoughts. Sunshine helps but hey looks like this lady got bull chit instead of support so well she got fed up.... With my hearing I'm not sure it was fatal, I hate being hearing impaired... never understanding just what he hell is really going on till it too late...

OH well... Prayers for that family... I turned my daughter over to God because I don't know what to do... she been doing way better... I wish she could find some happiness... It's all around her. But like dad she fails to see it most the time... I can feel her... my daughter, no matter how far apart we are we are connected, and her bad days make for my bad days, I hope I'm not causeing her to have bad days...

Weird huh...
I've noticed lately I'm connected to my son too. the oldest one... I wonder why lately I'm feeling my kids so... Maybe I'm gettin to the end of my rope lol... going plum.... i don't know. just when I blog on myspace i try to reach out to my kids... sometimes one gets a tad bit jealous. I don't mean to cause that cause I love em all so much just differently.. not more or less its just each child has their own place in my heart... I don't even try to explain it... I signed my letters Ma and Pa Kent, cause I thought my kids were super lol... the are super too me....

I've been haveing a lot of stinging and pain in my right leg and feet lately.. My sugar level been on the rise for a while now... and I'm a tad bit worried about that...I'm so tire of pain. I'm only 54, long as i can remember since aroung ten years of age is pain... It wasn't constant back then, just came and went, and as I got older it got more noticable... hands swelling and my ankles have always been easy to turn.
I wore cowboy boots for years because they helped me be more steady on my feet. Over the years I've sprain my ankles both so bad i could hardly walk for days on end.... but had to work anyway... then this mess piled up on me at 38 and geeesh I'm an outcast cause I'm not able to provide for my family...
My parents and wife bad mouthin me behind my back... so called friends abandon ya because they don't understand and don't want to try.. Cept John and Suzy, they were always there till they moved to Colorado... Then Suzy past away.... sure wonder how John is doing, best wishes to ya friend... always...

Well I go no one to blame... I sit here alone everyday, I make a small effort to reach out now and then... least no one talks bad about me here in Mindoro... really a nice little town... peaceful quite, and shade bit lonely lol...

Plenty of fish aint worked out yet... seem like all the ladys that will to talk smoke and gee cig. smoke just kills me now... can't stand it... effect my breathing aint that sad lol....
I'm a gun shy old fart anyway...

Kind of reminds me of highschool. I was willing to date, just lacked the nerve lol...I didn't think I was good enough even back then, and gee now... I know I aint what most these ladys are lookin for... but guess I might get lucky... who knew lol...
Well I got some plans for today, cook beans, clean carpet, and make cornbread...

So if a fellow goes fishin, and he sings while he fishes... and catches nothing...
Do he need to tune a fish ? :)

Well best wishes to ya all... hope joy and peace crosses you path today. a moment, hour or day of pain free releif...

Russ