Weeeee doggy, it's 11 pm, I can't sleep, leg is hurting, mind is running wild thru the jungle between my ears...
I think Tarzan has gone AWOL... All I've done the last two days is grump, grump and more grump... My son can't do anything right, he looks at me wrong and gee... I feel like a heel... but I fly off at the mouth before I can stop myself.
I'm stuck in a Why me mode... it aint easy being me... lots of things I do I don't like. I fly off the handle, about stupid little things. I'm scared everytime something changes and I'm not prepared... How did I get to be such a fickle old fart...
This darn pain, it's just relentless... Yeah it rained again today, dang weather front is hangin in the area. Blows in outta the west over the mississippi river, then seems like it turns tail and come back when it gets over by the great lakes... Probably the Jet Stream who cares really I need sun shine, ...
Awe this dang computer is a mess, Explorer keeps doing a illegal error, so the dang thing shuts down, give me fits... I knew this was gonna happen when my sons little buddy downloades all that crapp on this thing, I'm gonna buy me another 25 dollar junker after school starts. LOL..I aint gonna let him even pet the mouse hehehehe....
My son went crawdad huntin down at the creek, guess what... yeppers he fell in... swallowed some of that creek water and got the squirts... good old peptobismo..awe I aint gonna go look to see if i spelled that rite...
Well i passed my drive way on the way home from the store today. Yepp they came an tore my drive way up, left a bunch of it on the side of the road between here and Onalaska, I can tell my old driveway from the neighbors hes tore up into smaller pieces... My drive came up in huge hunks of asphalt... like it matters..
I'm suppose to get a letter tommorrow informing me that the people are coming to redo my drive way yesterday lol...
boy its tough Sure wish I could get some of these thought out and away from me... like pack them old painful memories in a box and toss em in the dumpster and forget all about em... why can't I do that.. Why do i live in the past... or why does the past haunt me so bad when I'm in pain, and feel so miserable... Guess that's just me... no wonder I'm alone... Who'd want to be around me like this...oh horse feathers.
I'm ventin a lot of pain and pain and pain and pain and pain and...just like a broken record. over and over... same old crapp I did yesterday, and all last week... you know a motrin and ice tea sounds good. i'm outta here Russ
I think Tarzan has gone AWOL... All I've done the last two days is grump, grump and more grump... My son can't do anything right, he looks at me wrong and gee... I feel like a heel... but I fly off at the mouth before I can stop myself.
I'm stuck in a Why me mode... it aint easy being me... lots of things I do I don't like. I fly off the handle, about stupid little things. I'm scared everytime something changes and I'm not prepared... How did I get to be such a fickle old fart...
This darn pain, it's just relentless... Yeah it rained again today, dang weather front is hangin in the area. Blows in outta the west over the mississippi river, then seems like it turns tail and come back when it gets over by the great lakes... Probably the Jet Stream who cares really I need sun shine, ...
Awe this dang computer is a mess, Explorer keeps doing a illegal error, so the dang thing shuts down, give me fits... I knew this was gonna happen when my sons little buddy downloades all that crapp on this thing, I'm gonna buy me another 25 dollar junker after school starts. LOL..I aint gonna let him even pet the mouse hehehehe....
My son went crawdad huntin down at the creek, guess what... yeppers he fell in... swallowed some of that creek water and got the squirts... good old peptobismo..awe I aint gonna go look to see if i spelled that rite...
Well i passed my drive way on the way home from the store today. Yepp they came an tore my drive way up, left a bunch of it on the side of the road between here and Onalaska, I can tell my old driveway from the neighbors hes tore up into smaller pieces... My drive came up in huge hunks of asphalt... like it matters..
I'm suppose to get a letter tommorrow informing me that the people are coming to redo my drive way yesterday lol...
boy its tough Sure wish I could get some of these thought out and away from me... like pack them old painful memories in a box and toss em in the dumpster and forget all about em... why can't I do that.. Why do i live in the past... or why does the past haunt me so bad when I'm in pain, and feel so miserable... Guess that's just me... no wonder I'm alone... Who'd want to be around me like this...oh horse feathers.
I'm ventin a lot of pain and pain and pain and pain and pain and...just like a broken record. over and over... same old crapp I did yesterday, and all last week... you know a motrin and ice tea sounds good. i'm outta here Russ
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Russ,
When the time comes that you are sick and tired of being sick and tired of the old haunting memories.You will decide to stop beating up on the dead horse.
Theres not a human soul in the world who can control your willing mind like you can.
Old painful memories can only bring misery so unless you care to live in misery you HAVE to get a mind set to move on.Shove all the why me\'s aside.Decide to think differantly dont stagnate in old unrewarding situations.
I understand your pain..and its alright to vent.Thats what we do here on DS a lot and its good to know we can vent.But you know russ pain is always going to be with us until we die.Some of us suffer a higher degree of pain and more often but we all know pain of some form.
The intention of DS and friends is improvement if not mental then physical.
You may want to take a stick and chase me after this response but thats okay.
Sometimes we need a shaking up even myself I appreciate people being straight with me.
Its still mully grubbs however you want to call it..you are the owner of your moods and your actions.
Its going to have to be you that changes the way you think and react to your past and your pain.
Sooner or later sick and tired will kick your butt if you dont take control and give it a black eye and make it stop.
Rachel