Howdee friends. It's rainin this Moanin here in Mindoro. The grass likes it done grown several inches. Me I'm moody, just feelin like the faded tree leaves.
Yepp fall in in the air. I have so many things I need to do before nasty cold weather hits. I'm wondering what this season gonna bring. I'ts been rather nice this summer, while lots of you suffered unbareable heat, it's been comfortable up here. I feel blessed in so many ways, seeing all the flooding and problems from hurricanes. I really feel for the families who's lost their homes. It's even more dishearting to watch the lack of care our government desplays towards the people that work and pay their salaries... yeppers just plain dang sadd...
All them men in Iraq, dodgein lead, for what?? They could be home helping rebuild those hurricane torn towns, and helping people get back into their homes....We could have the most wonderful country in the world and our leaders well nuff that, it's a cryin shame....
I love this country, but I can't say the same for our elected government.
I'd dare say government is like a fancy club... rich and famous only... use to be a mens club, lol... now it's a smucks club... it oughtta pay minium wage... Yeppers If I had my way government would have a set salary, if ya can't live on 50,000 a year go home... rest the money from taxes be spent on homeless and disable, and lots of state and federal jobs where folks could sit around scratchin their butts for a salary.. and pay more taxes...
Alritey, I"m being stupid, but that's an upgrade from dumb for me...
Hate rainy days, I'ts like extra time on my hands cause I can't get outside away from this computer.... turn it off? ARE YOU KIDDING!!! No way Jose' bet i didn't spell that Jose rite... who cares...

It's raining like a cow pissin on a flat rock geeesh...it rained all last week, some flooding down in La Crosse, I noticed the lake at West Salem is running over the top of the dam there... Hope this is good for the farmers. gee you ever pass a manure spreader on the highway, well ya oughtta lol... really work the old sinus cavities over... kinda like brain freeze from eatin ice cream too fast.....Yepp it stings someting fearous...

Ya know outsides these daily pains that some of us suffer, me myself and I have noticed that being overweight has unique new pains to add to the already long list of grumps... You can't loose weight, it follows you around no matter how fast ya waddle... my butts so bigg it pushes me around... fat cracks, yepp got those I loose change in them some times... where's my pucky dogg, whewwww. she's sleepin on the couch next to me.... Yepp I'm makin fun of my fat... FAT, thats what I am... obsesity or what ever is so lame.... when Ya fat ya FAT.. I'm fat... not really that ashamed of it either. Hey I was skinny once too lol.. Then I looked like Arnold, then I looked like Tom, now I look like Me.... 380 pounds of rockin, sockin, bologna eatin wild man.... Don't laugh too hard I lost 13 pounds eatin bologna lol... and bean. whew don't stand down wind... now ya know whats that smell....

Okay I gotta add one for the men using male enhancements.... ARE YOU #*#*ing crazy... when ya reach a certain age, ya need to slow down, keep that zipper up fellows, Naweeeee guess not, Ya'll gotta show the young bull how it done right.... that's so funny, well at least I know where my brain is, even if it aint much it don't hang between my leggs.... Thanks Grandma, you taught me well... nope I aint tellin what she told me, but she was da man lol....

See what these rainy days do to me... geesh, i go to communites on DS, but this dang computer wont let me reply, so I have to just watch from the sidelines, I see chit like where are all the good men... YOU WHOOOOO over here.... Oh YOU ment good looking good men with jobs and bank account.... sorry.

Then there are those who say ya livin in the past, Move on... How Ya do that... Who can honestly say they just forgot the past, least one as abusive as mine, and moved on... every time it rains and I'm in pain I remember the beatings. Then I remember the ridicule. Then I remember... oooops I forgot... okay well that's it, When I wake up in da mood and well gosh all mighty, guess I'm lucky I still get in da mood lol.... Seven long lonely years, Ya tend to forget what the mood is lol... thank God for a good imagination.... I can still dream... You know the hugs from a big woman is just as nice as the skinny ones. A person might not be an eye pleaser on the outside but be so wonderful in their hearts and soul...
Our society promotes young and sexy, everywhere you look advertisement uses young men and women to sell products, mostly young big busted women... Sex sell... rite... I'm gonna run out and buy that rat now. Oh wee lookit those shoes are so sexy... I'm too sexy for my car...
I'll walk...

any who, my train of thought about adds and sex was that TV, is ruinin young people today. It teaches stereo typing, not reality.

I don't want my son growing up to just judge people, exspecially some young lady by her looks. I'd like to teach him to see with his heart, but love is blind ya know... so if he looks with his heart first he just might be on the right tract. I know I chased skirts for about six years before I got married. I learned enough to be ready for marriage, yeah rite, totally new ballgame, come home find the wifey crying. I ask if there was anything I could do. NOPE just some sad thing on soap operas. (see the tv fly out the door) yepp, that's was me all male all stupid...

Well maybe I'll journal bout that sometime...
Ya know what, even with all this crapp lifes chunked at me, the pain, the loneliness, the bullchit that never ceased to amaze me.... I'm HAPPY, for real, i feel good about myself, I'm not lookin over my shoulders with worry. If I die I've made my peace with God years ago, I feel comfortable, laid back and happy for the most part of life... yeah I freak out when things change, and people do dumb chit... but in the final hour, I'm happy, and I feel blessed... and I'm glad DS allows us to share these feeling...

Yeah me Tarzan, wheres Jane? Dangit Cheta quit dat... whats that smell??? oh boy doggy gettin jealous now lol... okay so I'll go swing from the trees... best wishes Russ