Moanin friends... the weathers been so nice up here in Wisconsin last few day... one reasons I been so down, and hard on myself is I'm stuck inside... besides sometimes I worry I will give up if I'm not hard on myself... it's so easy to get sucked into this black hole of pain, when you are alone, too much time on your hands and the pain reminds me of days gone by... plus I'm stupid... oh I could define that statement several ways,... Okay so I'm educated, I have a masters degree in several areas of life... got em the hard way. No Harvard or Yell gonna teach the things I learned at the other end of the stick... the recieving end... wanna get deep better bring a diving bell... the pressure gonna get to ya... oh don't forget ya sack lunch too ya gonna be down there a looonnng loooooonnnnngggg time.... If I was gonna praise myself... I'd give myself all the stars, not just four or five all of em... if I'm gonna be proud of myself for the things I did right, Okay I'd give myself the noble prize (however ya spell it)... What good are all the rewards in this world if no body likes you for just who you are?... What good is knowledge if you are not encouraged to use it because you don't have that deploma from some fancy University,... Wanna know something I've put a few years into studing... Our consitutional rights.... Yet our congress writes rules and regulations for state and county agencies that violate peoples consititutional rights... force American citizens to sign away those rights... Do you know what the pledge of office for the president is... To Protect The Consitution Of the United States... same one I took when I joined the Air force... all military personal take this pledge... (least i think they do) maybe times have changed since I was drafted lol... actually I avoided the draft by joining lol, how smart was that hehehehe... could of went to Canadia with cousin Bill lol... I'm teasin really (did I spell Canadia rite?)Oh gosh dang train jumped the tracks again... When I grow up... I'm gonna run around my house in my under wear... have food fights with my dog... call my kids and ask for an allowance... eat ice cream for breakfast... ask my girlfriend to have a squeaky toy installed with her breast inlargements... (male thing)... okay so four outta five aint bad... don't hate me just being silly... you ladies know who us men are lol... me I'm not just a legg man... I like the whole chicken lol... give me an eight piece please... Wat? all ya got is wings and thighs... oooops having a flash back from Walmart there...lol Yeah I'm feeling better, just hard to get around...gotta do groceries today, that's gonna scare my checking account... countin the gas poor check book might just have a stroke... RIP, it died so young... I tried cpr... pumped on the deposit slips, blew on the checks, even beat on the cover but nope... I'm gonna cry now... right after i go to the bathroom...munch better... well time for a walkabout with my doggy... she so cute... she a rat terrier, named Angel... nicknamed puckydog... she's a hearing ear doggy gone madd.... she's insane, she can hear two flys argueing two blocks away... and then she gotta put in her two cents worth... real early warning system yepp... she aint lickin ya face she lickin a pan... moochin for food... rough housing in the bed, hoggin the pillows... she will chase anything that moves, rocks, parked cars, :), I'm teasin lol... hope ya smiled, wont crack ya face you know... have a great day. eat beans America needs the gass..best wishes Russ