Well things didn't go so well with my sleep machine last nite, did an hour or so, woke up hand(left) was in pain, could only move my thumb, and first two fingers, little finger was numb, well not numb numb painfully stiff, I don't know how to explain it lol, it's overcast outside, mean old grey weather, drizlin here and there, now and then enuff to mess up my plains for today, So ole V-ger gonna sit a day or two more, Yellow jackets building nest inside and out, one them little buggers chased me and son outta old paint saturday, I tried to get the little bugger outta da van, he just kept screwin around like he owned the dang thing so I hit em with the bug spray, he be building nest in the clouds now lol... got me groceries, I compaired the amount of groceries I bought last year in July to how much it cost me this month...had to scoop my chin up off the floor, cost me 130.00 more this July to buy the same crap I got last year... I'm worried, this kid of mine won't eat beans, he loves cornbread tho...good old southern style, not that yankee cornbread cake lol... I'm teasin, but there is a difference, it's the amount of sugar, and or use of milk or water, bacon fat,,, Oh yeah granddma collected the bacon fat, and reused it to cook with, course people did things a lot different in the 60's, We kept foster children, so sometimes we'd go to Elgin Texas and pick black berries, see you could get paid to pick these black berries, so much a gallon, (aka coffee can) there were like twelve of us kids countin two adults... andy who... grandma would always buy couple two three... a lot of black berries and we me and grandma would can em, make black berry jelly what ever. break out the mason jars and sterlize the lids, pressure cooker steamin away, berries cookin on the stove, this is generally early in the am,,, like before breakfast, you know to beat the texas heat, andy who... once she stopped to fix pancakes,,,, oh man,,, she made the best pancakes, from scratch not no dang box stuff lol... about twelve these wonderful melt in you mouth pancakes smouthered in hot black berry jelly,,, and real cow butter lol... Told ya we had our moments... I think I just gained twelve pounds lol... Is this living in the past? cause at the moment I've got nothing else to do, and this memory just popped into my head...there was a time i hated this woman, at twelve i vowed to my grandpa, if i married a woman that treated me the way she treat us, I'd kick her a$$ out the front door just to see how high she bounced... yepp that's wat i told my grandpa... sad aint it... I never thought I'd LOVE her the way I do... If you pray enough and forgive enough you can remove hate from your heart... Oh there will be time when hate rears it's ugly head and poke at your heart, but love can keep it at bay...bay, bay.... BAYWATCH... Oh boy, there it goes,,, my brain just wondered off to play with its-self lol... dancin in the moonlite, skippin thru the fogg... ok so I am male, I like women :) actually baywatch and charlies angels I didn't watch too much of... in fact too many shows make sex something to be treated a fun to do, hell with the responsibilities that go with it... hey brain ya came back... get out...I don't want to do no serious chit this moanin,,, I want to laugh, (who said i need to get laid?) Oh that was what me daughter told me lol... She's a hoot too just like her dad... laughs at farts lol... ok I'm an old stinker lol... well guess I'll go try my mail again... Oh I recieved some messages that ya suppose to send along too your friends, but either me, in all my glory, or this dell, just wont comply, I have a broken window, something to do with ddl's and illegal functions... I got a little note at the bottom of my screen that reads...Done, but with errors on page... Heck I haven't even been able to get into plentyoffish lol... dang old thingamogiggy... best wishes friends, and many blessing Russ