Good Moaning friends, It's raining in the Valley, so yeah more pain. Today I have to go to clinic for blood test and six month check up...I'v visited several communities here on DailyStrenght. Lots of good folks sent me comments, support. I am truly grateful, I want to say to everyone my life to me is wonderful, I've lived a dream come true fairy tale, too bad no happy ever after, but hey... I got lots of fun memories... i mean how do you explain the way life goes? Me and my children were close when they were kids, then as teenagers we grew apart. Some of us are patching the fence now. I rant and rave in my journals to vent out my frustrations so they don't become a problem in my life. The big difference is Now! I know I have some serious mental issues, along with some serious health issues. Alone I'll always be struggling against the muck... This is the first time I've ever shared my awful past with others. Yeah I told my kids, they think I'm full of chit... I see some serious genetic traits that I wish I didn't in my children, I gonna go now get ready for the trip to La Crosse. Car seat is gonna be wet cause the window was down, and now it's raining lol... Thank you all for your support and Friendship. You'd be suprised how much just venting here online has helped me the last few days. Best wishes and Many Blessing Russ