I'm waiting on the old coffee pot. feels like rain today, seems like the end of the month is always the toughest. Missed a couple of beautiful days stuck inside because I felt like...I got places that hurt I can't even bring myself to discuss in my journals...must be a male thang lol...:(, Well waiting for the first, pay bills work on V_ger and be broke again, cost of living just jumped here again gee, i live in 30% housing an my rent went up, not my income just my rent aint that a kicker, how the heck they do that, some kind of fancy math i guess, oh well beggers can't be choosey, I think I need to take my sons shoes out an bury them smell dead yuck!!! Wish I had someone to hold me and just let me cry...how's that for manly :) so any way, I was hoping for a good day, I just don't feel like I fit in...so I'm just gonna go, wish everyone a great day, guess my old grandma was right, never amounted to anything, certainly not to anyone...wonder what it really feels like to be loved, I know how it feels to love. I just don't know how it feels to have that kind of love returned, or shared...not very good question is it ... if if if if a frog had wings or if elephants could fly... if I'd of tried harder, maybe I should just leave it a lone...
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Been raing last few days here as well! We needed it though. Sorry you haven\'t been feeling so well and sure hope you get to feeling better and enjoy those beautiful days outside! Sorry for your cost of living going up and money spent before ya get it, been there before and it isn\'t any fun! I hope something chances for you! lol ...I have had my share of a son and stinky feet, had to fix that real fast lol
Nothing wrong for you to want someone to hold you and be able to poor your emotions out. Doesn\'t everyone and it doesn\'t make you less manly, at least you admit it and I think that takes a real man to say it so don\'t think of yourself badly for that!!
We all want to fit in and you will, keep reaching out and others will reach back don\'t give up, just keep yourself out there so NO your grandmother WAS NOT RIGHT!!! You can\'t go back all you can do is go forward and the one is out there you just havent met them yet or has it been the right time maybe. Stay positive!!! Smile and have yourself a good day!!!