Good Moaning...I'm just wondering why I keep this journal everyday...Some simple little activity to ensure a few moments of feeling part of the world. I blog on myspace also, so far no friends. Found some funny video, dang old computer hangs up and freezes so bad Chat rooms are furtile. Lots of resistance lol. Makes me kinda miss AOL, rofl...Most the time when I get down, I try to look around for something to be up lifting. I'm back on the horse with my diet. Eating less, cooking less. Struggling with my breathing machine. These dreams I have while wearing the mask, don't mean a dam thing, just the pain. Pain, if it were money I'd be a billionare many times over. I know other people have pain, I'm gonna take my woe is me attitude for a walk today, nawe make that a bike ride. I'm a bit stressed, feeling stupid taking this new medicine doc prescribed for pain, not much help, kinda like a downer lol, been feeling all sorry for me self since i started taking it.I don't like this feeling, but got to give this med a test drive.. at least they can't say I didn't try ... Laters friends, many blessing