Hi friends, I know I'm not good with people. For some reason I've always felt alone even with those I love. I always seen to be on the outside looking in. I wish it was not so, I truly care about people. I have always tried to help even before I was asked. I have no regrets, except for the loneliness. I blame no one for my many shortcomings. My grandmother...I love her more than I ever though I could. My mom too. Abusive they may have been. NO ONE taught them any different. No hatred is going to change what has happen. I feel free, The bible says seek and you shall find. Seek the truth and the truth will set you free. My heart belongs to Jehovah. NOt the watch tower bible tract society. My Jehovah Wittness in-laws think I am something bad...I feel compassion for them, and their narrow minded lifes. They are wonderful people. Only family I ever had. To me religion is like great minds that think alike. Birds of a feather stick together. People with like beliefs need each other. It strenghtens their souls and their hearts become glad. I see many different churchs. I only see one god. They all pray to that god. The big picture. Well I'm still standing too close to see that lol.
I sometimes would like to Preach. I fear I have some real radical ideas. Second I wouldn't want to mislead anyone and cause them to stumble. I've studied Mythology from all around the world. I'm sorry, short story. I'm just lonely and rambling. I have a lot of time to sit and think about things. God, Life and Planet Earth. I do know this. In the great cooking pot of things. If you throw in the right stuff. You get a really good soup. I find it really interesting that from 1890 to present day, humans have come farther than we did the first 35 million years on earth. Something happened I think we would be really suprised to have the truth about our past. To everyone a wish of happiness and love. Russ