TGIF: Remember looking forward to Friday. Maybe cause it was payday, or just the last work day of the week. Awe where the 40 hour work week go. I worked since I was 12 years old untill I was no longer able. Just 38 when my disability got the better of me. Time sure gets a way from us somehow. gosh I forgot what year this is for a second. Mount ST.Helen blew her top twenty seven years ago today, 1980.I still think if cars used the right kind of gas beans would be higher than a gallon of gasoline. lol beans and whiskey would be an explosive combination. what would you call a car that ran on gas,I should let this train of thought fade away. Someoneopen the window...I wish i could make everyone smile, I'm having a heck of a time with myself. I'm getting better and bigger.wider not wiser oh well hey, the past two years almost got me. really, my son was ready to bury me, I told him I would kick the dirt of... I've made my peace with God. I'm ready when the time comes, but I am not willing to speed things up ya know. Heck I havent gotten to live life on my own terms yet. Being lonely isn't advisable, but it often happens because we no longer please the eye and minds of those we would choose to be around. Abusive childhoods and marriages tend to leave deeeeeep scars that never truly heal. But if we can find a way to forgive and let go of the Hate that would consume us. We can find a way to smile again. It is not easy to forget when the pain is constant and the loneliness depressing, but hey if you can get out in the sunshine, don't sit in the dark, and remember you are in someones thoughts somewhere...