So fed up....... struggling with work- a mix of nights and 12 day shifts. Think this is adding to the havoc in my body. Just seem to be a blur of sweating and horrible pain. Getting more and more muscle/soft tissue pain in left leg even at rest that is most unpleasant and hard to quantify/describe. Its pulsatile but not rhythymic, dull, crampy..... oh I don't know but it is pissing me off. I've got enough joint pain to contend with without this. Not got adequate pain relief either but cannot risk opiates as need good brain function for safe practice at work. So feeling sorry for myself at the moment. Gave work a miss today so yet more sickness time to make up....great. Got my 4 hr OGGT this thurs and currently doing 2nd urine collection for cortisol  so I hope to god something shows up somewhere as I want answers. I'm fed up of not enjoying this life, everything seems so hard and I want to live my life not just exist. I want to feel well, I'm 32 for christsake not 82 and I need to be the healthy one having a  partner who is crippled with osteoarthritis all over. He is the one who needs support and at the moment our roles are reversed. He is the one running the house etc.....I go to work placement, sleep lots and eat, thats all I do. Im in the last stages of my nursing training and should be doing an awful lot of study and preparation but i'm notand time is running away. I hope when I qualify I can cope with work fulltime. Its no fun being  skint all the time and  I haven't been to uni for 3 years for the hell of it. At this moment I really wonder what our future holds.    OK rant over... got that out and had a weep, feel slightly less poo now on my  poo-o-meter.            Cheers for reading, Moley Off to dig a hidey hole now x