I have a very hard time writting.  I mostly read , it seems like every emotion I have had, someone else has had it too. Everything that has happened to me, has happened to someone before me. So I just sit back and read. I'm so sorry that people have forgotten what MARRIAGE is.  Sorry that people have lost the desire to hold what is SO important for  our very existance.  That brings me back to square one. I HAVE LOST FAITH IN PEOPLE!!  Same thing I said, the very first day I found this community.  My husband and I are still struggling, each and every day. He has no idea the suffering he has imposed on me. My feelings are so immense, so widespread and  has affected every single aspect of my life, so much so that I can begin to talk about it, then it overwhelms me and I just stop because it's so much bigger than me and I know I can never, ever feel that I have truly expressed how I FEEL!!!! So forget it!!

         DOES ANYBODY EVER REALLLY FIND LOVE THAT LASTS?  NO, I DON'T THINK SO!!!!!! assholes!!!! MEN ARE ASSHOLES

      (o.k., That was dirty)