Goal update...
It seems I cannot drag the slider up on my goal unless I write an update. Here is my short update. I have continued to pray for good things to happen in the lives of each person who has hurt me, betrayed me, traumatized me and just did plain old bad things to myself, my daughter and my loved ones. I continue to lift them up in my mind and remember they are only human like me and who among us is even near perfection? To my shock, someone once asked me if I had hurt anyone and done wrong to others. I did not think about that topic before except if I broke up with a boyfriend. There have been many hurt by me, I confess. I ruined alot of people's days all because of my own overwhelming stress and my problem of flipping out into a rage episode and it did not matter if it was in public in front of 500 people, I had a problem and I feel so sorry now for all the times I did that. And I am sure I embarrassed my daughter many times because she was with me if not at school or a friend's. I hope people have been able to forgive me. But having that lightbulb moment when my friend asked me that question did make it easier to see how some others hurt me maybe without realizing it. Of course, there are the other others and they are top of the list because some were big, bad, intentional hurts/wrongs. Does it matter? It makes it harder to forgive and takes longer in my experience but it is still my desire to forgive all. That includes forgiving myself. So there you have it. : ) ~Sherry
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Hi Sherry~ best of wishes on reaching your goal...sounds like you are off to a great start! :)
You goal is a worthy one and absolutely essential. Holding onto resentment only guarantees that we will stay stuck. In AA they say that anytime we are upset we ourselves are in some measure in the wrong even if it seems we are the victim in the situation. I don\'t know if I believe that but it helps for me to take a hard look at myself and address any wrongs on my part. Good luck with your goal!
This is a worthy goal. The peace of mind is amazing!
I have noticed that we can\'t update our goals without writing a journal. That changed from 2007 when I used this site for other reasons. I am glad that you have forgiven yourself: you are human, and humans, as God\'s creatures, are beautiful. Maybe we don\'t have 4 legs and a flowing mane & tail, but God still thinks we are beautiful :-) .
Thank you all for your comments, I agree with everything said here. Especially your last sentence Oak! Takes a horse crazy woman to understand that. : )
You are all a blessing in my life. : )