The more I think about my crazy ride home from the doctors yesterday, the funnier it becomes.  Sometime hysteria is the better part of valor.  I try to keep my thoughts on others and doing good for them.  The Emmaus community here teaches it is for us to serve, not to be served.  Sometimes, when the blue thoughts creep in, it is difficult to deal with difficult people.  I really feel badly that sometimes I want to shout,"I know it isn't all about me, but coundn't some of it be?"  Most of the time I feel I've lost me and wouldn't know me if I found me.