My mind is restless tonight, my stomach is in knots. Knowing that stress is what put me in pain and threw me in this mess in the first place... I'm trying my hardest to keep myself in check. But its hard, when today while trying to enjoy a day at the pool with my boyfriend, I recognized something all too familiar. Something that 4 years ago turned my life upside down. And something that I'm still battling to this day. There's nothing more I want right now than for him to not have shingles. Please, please, please. The pain I feel now while writing this is enough for the both of us. Please let tomorrow be a good day and not one where I'll have to be a shoulder to lean on for something I know all to well. Please. :(