An update.

So the pain is of course present, as usual. But I'm dealing with it. There are different stages that I go through with pain. Though it is always there, sometimes it's absolutely horrible and other times it's just there. I've had my fair share of these absolutely horrible days. But today, I'm okay. Emotionally I can handle this burden. And I'm going to be okay. I've been spending a lot of time with my family since I have the week off and I swear, they're the one thing that gives me strength. It's almost as though I forget what I'm feeling, because laughter and happiness is so much stronger than pain. I just want to be happy. And I don't care if I have to pretend like this pain isn't there... I just want to be able to wake up in the morning and breathe as if it didn't take my breath away. I'm trying to find a place of content, and that's all I can ask for.