Feeling Better
Feeling better!
Once again, I am feeling new inside today. I feel pink and tender as if young tissue were growing within me. I have been willing to take an ultimate risk by looking at the state of my life and insides, NOT as I wish they were, but as they actually are. I have experienced many inner deaths. I have walked through spaces inside my mind and heart that felt life threatening. What I did not expect was this sense of birth and newness; over and over and over.
There were times I thought that I would be stuck in anger and blame forever, but I see once again today that I did not need to feel so down on myself for feeling those feelings. They are just part of the process.
Today and always I will accept my feelings whether or not I like them. After all, they are just feelings and feelings come and go; just like clouds in the sky!
Again, I cannot say thank-you enough for all of you who have helped me grow!
xo
Once again, I am feeling new inside today. I feel pink and tender as if young tissue were growing within me. I have been willing to take an ultimate risk by looking at the state of my life and insides, NOT as I wish they were, but as they actually are. I have experienced many inner deaths. I have walked through spaces inside my mind and heart that felt life threatening. What I did not expect was this sense of birth and newness; over and over and over.
There were times I thought that I would be stuck in anger and blame forever, but I see once again today that I did not need to feel so down on myself for feeling those feelings. They are just part of the process.
Today and always I will accept my feelings whether or not I like them. After all, they are just feelings and feelings come and go; just like clouds in the sky!
Again, I cannot say thank-you enough for all of you who have helped me grow!
xo
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I love this teaching for it\'s insight into the anxiety problem most of us live with until we get this, \"I have been willing to take an ultimate risk by looking at the state of my life and insides, NOT as I wish they were, but as they actually are.\".
Grieving how things Aren\'t is a waste of emotion (so to speak) compared to acceptance of Reality as it is, without judgment and expectations. Expectations and \"making meaning\" of reality in order to predict the future for feelings based on an illusion of security, robs us of the gifts of the present reality to be experienced. And those \"pesky emotions\" and feelings of good or bad, safe or danger about the future, change constantly, \"like clouds in the sky\" of all sorts of shapes and sizes.
I guess it would help me to finally accept the Impermanence of Reality. Not that it doesn\'t exist, but that its essence is that it changes constantly, just as we do daily as we age and experience new realities.
Love your sharing, it inspires me!
Love you too.
XO\'s
Love your sharing too! You are courageous and wonderfulxxxx