Family
I came from a family of 8 children; me being the oldest girl and the middle child. As you all know, the dysfunction ran deep in my family.
Anyway, things have been interesting in my life these past few months. There were two siblings who estranged themselves from the rest of us when my Mom died due to money issues. Then, there were my two sister's who estranged themselves from me a few years back. Since my accident in October, they have all made contact with me and it is feeling strange. It feels awkward because when I speak to one, and speak about another they are not talking to, there is a silence. I know this is all "new" and I am grateful and amazed how it is working out; but, from someplace I am feeling anger. I am NOT going to try and dissect it to death; I am going to do as I always do: Recognize it, not fight it and embrace it...I think something bigger is going to break through!
Interesting dream last night. I was having a "root canal." I am petrified of root canals; but in the dream the nurse who was going to give me the shot convinced me not to be so fearful. In my mind, I see the root canal as "getting to the root of things" and it's not going to be as scary as I think. I also sense, for me, I am somehow using this "anger" thing to cover up the fear I am going to have to walk thru.
I don't know....I just don't know. As I said, I am going to be willing to let it unfold as it will.
Very interesting! I think Spirit/God/Universe is WONDERFUL HOW HE/SHE WORKS!
Hugszzzz, Vicki
Anyway, things have been interesting in my life these past few months. There were two siblings who estranged themselves from the rest of us when my Mom died due to money issues. Then, there were my two sister's who estranged themselves from me a few years back. Since my accident in October, they have all made contact with me and it is feeling strange. It feels awkward because when I speak to one, and speak about another they are not talking to, there is a silence. I know this is all "new" and I am grateful and amazed how it is working out; but, from someplace I am feeling anger. I am NOT going to try and dissect it to death; I am going to do as I always do: Recognize it, not fight it and embrace it...I think something bigger is going to break through!
Interesting dream last night. I was having a "root canal." I am petrified of root canals; but in the dream the nurse who was going to give me the shot convinced me not to be so fearful. In my mind, I see the root canal as "getting to the root of things" and it's not going to be as scary as I think. I also sense, for me, I am somehow using this "anger" thing to cover up the fear I am going to have to walk thru.
I don't know....I just don't know. As I said, I am going to be willing to let it unfold as it will.
Very interesting! I think Spirit/God/Universe is WONDERFUL HOW HE/SHE WORKS!
Hugszzzz, Vicki
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Your dream and interpretation sounds reasonable explanation.
I think you are better than I with embracing the current situation with your sisters.
I did not know you had an accident. I am glad you are ok. Well ok to tell the story that is.
I hope everything works out.
I\'ve had interesting dreams in the last few weeks (and I don\'t dream a lot) on was at the dentist too! Another was me bleeding...a flow of blood. I don\'t find these dreams disturbing....they appear to \'cleanse\' me. I hope everything works out with your siblings too....but families like \'ours\' tend to be complicated and other people are out of our control....their pain, anger, resentment, jealousy can come out in a variety of ways.... The only thing you can control is your reaction to them..... Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
\'one\'
Vicki,
Stay open. That openness will allow whatever comes up to flow through you.
xx
Suz
Family. Eeek! Why do they cause us so much aggravation and pain?! I just made a comment like that in someone else\'s journal and I have been trying to manage my own family issues as well. Wy does it feel like an uphill climb and we never get to the other side?
Thanks everyone! SuzA66 that\'s exactly what I am going to do! Thank-you!
TGB: I love the dream! It fascinates me. Did you know blood is our lifeline; I love the cleansing part!
Nature GIrl: So good to hear from you! I am so glad to be speaking to my sisters again! Hope your doing well!
BCP: I am not upset with my family whatsoever; that is the exciting part. I am speaking to every one of my siblings; something my heart has longed for. Some of them have not changed at all; but I have. The relationships that are taking place are via phone calls, text, fb, etc. Nothing serious; very light. My joy comes from this as it is what I have always wanted. I didn\'t particularly care if the relationship was a close one, I just wanted to be able to see them, talk to them, have no expectations of them or hold any grudges toward them.
I have no idea where the anger is coming from I am feeling; but I am sure I will be shown as I ask for it to be shown to me! Right now, I do not sense it is at my siblings; if feels it may be residue from the past, but not sure what.
At this moment, I am having a very deep compassion for my siblings! Little bits and pieces of our past will present itself at times and I find it interesting to hear their take on our childhood. Looking forward to see what I dream tonight! :-)
Thanks everyone for your feedback!
Hugszzzz, Vicki
Just trust the process, and follow your heart, it will never let you down, Blaine
Thank-you Blaine..that\'s what I am doing.