Well....

As you can see I didn't write for three days. Saturday came and I was watching football. My wife and kids went to a family party with her side of the family but I didn't go. Partly because I didn't want to but partly because we would have had to take two vehicles if I went and parking is a bitch around here. So after they left I got it in my mind that I wanted to drink and I drove to the 7-Eleven to get some beer. When I got home I sat here in front of the computer and watched the football game. I had the beers but I wasn't drinking them. I kept telling myself that just because I bought them doesn't mean I have to drink them. I held off for almost an hour before I finally gave in. Well of course the next day was more football and when I got home from work the family was gone again. Of course I went straight to the store again and did it all over again. Monday I decided it was time to get back on the wagon and with it being a holiday everyone would be home so it would be easier to resist. Well wouldn't you know it, when I got home they were gone again. Repeat of the 2 days before. That night my wife confronted me because she had seen me carrying my empties out with me in the morning when I went to work. I denied it and brushed it aside but she was telling me how she couldn't sleep the whole morning after that because she didn't know how to help me and she was not going to sit around and watch me kill myself like my friend did. My friend Gareth just died 3 weeks ago because he had a heart condition but didn't take care of himself and kept drinking. I don't have a heart condition but with the way I have been drinking I can imagine I could develop serious health problems. So today I get back up and embrace sobriety.

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hang it there, find a program if ya can