I want to thank all of you that have responded to me. It is so amazing to see that anyone would take the time to help someone else out.

I didn't drink for one day in this last week.

I thought I had it figured out. But despite beating myself up in the morning by the time the afternoon comes I am ready to buy another beer and I have every out clause ready in my mind.

I told myself this last time I would only drink one more day because the next two days my wife would be off work and I would resist. I still find a way to buy the beer and drink when my wife leaves the house for a few minutes or if I volunteer to go to the store to buy something.

I still can't believe she can't tell I am drunk. Either that or she is just afraid to confront me.

I still may just go to AA as some of you have suggested but I am afraid.

I could never complete all the steps because there are some things I have done to people, my wife included, that I could never telle them about.

I also am wary about the "higher power" as I am completely against religion.

Thanks anyone for reading this.