I have learned that its a dangerous thing to say what you feel to friends.  I have a lost a few good ones through this night.  I thought I was working for all of us, not choosing one over the other.  I wont bother you with my thoughts again.   Its time for me and my prednisone up for several nights busy mind go be still.  and let you all move on in your own way to peace.  I did not mean any harm to anyone, and I am sorry if I caused any of you to feel badly it was not my intention.  Love to all of you  Always,  Holly