Thanks
Well, it looks like I need to apologize to everyone again. I first
want to thank you for being here for me, like you ALWAYS are.
This past Saturday was 6 months since I lost my husband Kenny.
So much was already going through my head about everything.
Thinking about when Kenny was sick, and the pain he went through.
And the day I lost him, how hurt I was, and how hurt I still am.
One day it feels like I just lost him,and the next day ,it feels like
eternity. To make a long story short, someone on this site had
said some things to me, that really had hurt me. As it turned out,
it was a misunderstanding on both of our parts. And everything is
okay now. I am a really easy going person,and not only is the
support of my friends so important to me,but what I can do to help
others and support them, is even more important to me.
I have always been one that loves to give more than to receive.
So, this misunderstanding and the timing of it, just made me jump
the gun and decide to get off of DS. I had already written to them
to take me off this site. I have written back to DS asking for them
not to deactivate my account here. So, I don't know if they will
cancel my account or not. Anyway, I felt I owed everyone a
explanation for my actions. Please Please accept my apology in
this matter. Next time I will think it out before I make the mistake
of just giving up.
Thanks again for all of your support and friendship , I appreciate
each and everyone of you so much.
Big Hugs,
Deanna
want to thank you for being here for me, like you ALWAYS are.
This past Saturday was 6 months since I lost my husband Kenny.
So much was already going through my head about everything.
Thinking about when Kenny was sick, and the pain he went through.
And the day I lost him, how hurt I was, and how hurt I still am.
One day it feels like I just lost him,and the next day ,it feels like
eternity. To make a long story short, someone on this site had
said some things to me, that really had hurt me. As it turned out,
it was a misunderstanding on both of our parts. And everything is
okay now. I am a really easy going person,and not only is the
support of my friends so important to me,but what I can do to help
others and support them, is even more important to me.
I have always been one that loves to give more than to receive.
So, this misunderstanding and the timing of it, just made me jump
the gun and decide to get off of DS. I had already written to them
to take me off this site. I have written back to DS asking for them
not to deactivate my account here. So, I don't know if they will
cancel my account or not. Anyway, I felt I owed everyone a
explanation for my actions. Please Please accept my apology in
this matter. Next time I will think it out before I make the mistake
of just giving up.
Thanks again for all of your support and friendship , I appreciate
each and everyone of you so much.
Big Hugs,
Deanna
Replies
I\'m so happy you will stay .You are cherished and loved by all.
No need for apologies, we are so grateful you are here with us. :)
Deanna, I am so glad you reconsidered and have worked out whatever misunderstanding. Grieve can cause us to have clouded vision----6 months since Kenny died, I am so sorry----there are times a long the way, on this most difficult walk of our lives, that the grief peaks and hurts even more than in the beginning because we aren\'t clothed in shock anymore. You are a loving, kind, supportive friend-----I NEVER expect my friends to be perfect because I sure am NOT!!!---so please don\'t expect that of yourself.
With love and hugs,
Sallie
Deanna, I was so glad to see you pop back up on my e-mail notifications.
I knew that this could be worked out. Our feelings are so open and raw right now and things can get misconstrued. I hope that all is well with you and I will think of you daily. Love and hugs, deb
I\'m pleased that you changed your mind. I always found is bewildering that someone would do or say something hurtful that causes a person to leave this site.
Anniversaries are always tough. I\'m not sure how I am going to react as my wedding anniversary is on 7/4. All I know is that I will get through it.
Hugs
Steve
Glad you\'re still with us, friend! Sending lots of healing and peace and comfort....hugs...
I can\'t imagine that you\'d hurt anyone\'s feelings. And sometimes when we\'re really honest and spilling our guts, we say stuff that we wouldn\'t say in polite society. But this should be a safe haven where we are not judged. I hope everyone realizes that. None of us are trying to hurt feelings. We\'re just letting off steam and sometimes it comes out crass or rude. But we need it. So - I\'m glad you\'re not leaving. I\'m looking forward to a drink out of a mason jar with you some time!!!
I found your journal entry on my email notifications so you must be on my friends list? I am glad to see that we have all had times where we are not our usual selves. I got some grief material from hospice last week that warned we may do that and try not to beat ourselves up for it. Well, I guess we do beat ourselves up sometimes anyway. I am glad you decided to stay. You would have been truly missed.
Hugs, Gwen
You\'re the best. Glad you\'re here! Darleen
Believe me I understand. Our minds do not think straight when grieving. So don\'t worry about. I\'m glad everything is ok now and you will be staying. You are a sweet person and I love hearing from you. Hugs!
Hurray!! You are staying, I have to say I was gutted when I quickly read your post this morning just before work, that you were leaving. It upsets me when people talk of leaving, we have ALL already experienced enough loss. So pleased!! Xxxxx
Deanna, That is so good you are staying. It is so hard to comprehend grieving and to be only 6 mths from his passing is even more harder and our emotions are on high over load when a date triggers them. it reminds us too much of that day.
So, no apology needed but a hug will do.
Hugs & God Bless,
Judy
I am so glad you are staying. Sometimes things people say do not hit the right cord but sometimes the writing comes out different than the meaning too. I hope I do not let that happen but no promises ...I just try to be nice and caring. I know many here have been super in my thinking and handling of going through what I was going through from day one to now.
HUGS from PNW
Deanna, For some reason I don\'t get the email notifications but kept checking back here to see if you were still with us. So happy you are staying - YEA!! You are a special and caring friend to so many here. Hugs, Stephanie