Depressed
I am writing this only because a couple of you keep in touch with me
everyday. I don't really understand what is going on with me,but I
have never been this depressed before in quite awhile.
Anyway, I need to take some time alone, and try to figure out
why every thing has gotten so much worse. I am normally a pretty
up person, no matter how bad things are,but just not now.
In other words, I appreciate everyone's friendship and support,
I just need to find myself again before I can be of any help to
anyone or myself. Please don't take the time to write in my
journal to me, this is just what I am going through right now.
When I find myself again I will need your support more than
ever, so Please wait until then before you write to me.
Thanks--Deanna
everyday. I don't really understand what is going on with me,but I
have never been this depressed before in quite awhile.
Anyway, I need to take some time alone, and try to figure out
why every thing has gotten so much worse. I am normally a pretty
up person, no matter how bad things are,but just not now.
In other words, I appreciate everyone's friendship and support,
I just need to find myself again before I can be of any help to
anyone or myself. Please don't take the time to write in my
journal to me, this is just what I am going through right now.
When I find myself again I will need your support more than
ever, so Please wait until then before you write to me.
Thanks--Deanna
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Ok so don\'t read this. I\'m writing it for myself. .......
Hey Julia, I\'m worried about Deanna. I know how she feels. I had a week last week were I felt like I was back at square one. Those dark black thoughts that I had in the first few months came back and I was scared that I wouldn\'t make it. But I went to my group session, wrote on DS, cried a lot and when all that didn\'t help I took a couple of sleeping pills and slept for 12 hours straight. Today was better. I hope Deanna knows I\'m thinking of her.
won\'t write, will pray......
Just talking to myself here. Wondering if Deanna knows that she will be ok. Boy! I know how scary and intense it can get, and how you just don\'t want to talk to anyone, see anyone or even exist, but it gets better, you get stronger from having gone through it. It sneaks up on you from time to time and it feels overwhelming all over again, but as time goes on you learn new ways to stab at the beast. Some days you win..some days you have to concede, but you always get back up! Waiting for me friend to return. Cause she is a fighter and she helped me get through a really rough day!
I\'m not writing to Sparkles either so would one of you\'ll let me know when she is ready to talk? She is one of the kindest,mostcaring, and generous persons
And I want to tell her how much she has helped me.
I am writing this so when she feels up to it she can read it then. Unfortunately this is part of the grief journey that we are all on and we have many lows with a few highs, hopefully that will switch around to MANY HIGHS and a few lows. Family and friends are there to help us on this journey so when you are feeling down we can reach out our hand and help you back up again, like you have done to others on DS.........we will honor your wishes if you need some time to yourself but know that I want to help you now in any way that I can......sending many hugs your way.....((((HUGS)))
Deanna just know we are here for you and give us a shout-out when the need arrives. Don\'t be shy to let me know with a \'hug\' or PM -- for TOGETHER WE DO STAND!!!
Gentle ((hugs))
:-) Patricia
Just letting you know, I\'m here & will give you your space.
If this goes on too long, I might go down that deep dark hole with a flashlight, at least to keep you company.
Love ~ kate
Sending love and prayers daily. Peace. Darleen
We understand my friend.....I have been in that dark place myself....its okay...take the time you need to grieve knowing you have people here who are here for you when you need us, Hugs Lu Ann
Exhaustion will depress anyone.
Ok so much for asking no one to respond-for me it\'s the lonliness that is so debilitating-doesnt matter where you are or who you are with-it\'s lonely.Thinking of you-hope you get back on the site soon.