Therapy

So I've going to therapy since April I think. I've hated the experience the whole time. I also saw a therapist when I was very young and again when I was 13 yrs old. I had tried to kill myself when I 13 and that's why I had to go then. When I was really young I had to go because I was abused by my father. The first 2 times were not my choice but this time was. I had hit rock bottom and new I needed help if I was going to get back up again. The therapist I saw was a much older gentlemen. He rarely remembered anything we talked about in my sessions. So needless to say I hated going. I also hated having to dredge up stuff from my childhood. I have delt with the stuff that happened to me as a child and I don't like bringing it except to say "Hey, I was molested and I'm doing ok." Yesterday I realized I had no money to pay for my session today. So this moring I called to reschedule my appointment. The woman told me since I called after 9am I would be considered a noshow. This really ticked me off. She then told me that before she could reschedule my appointment I would have to go to some engagement class (whatever the hell that is). The only day and time they have that is Wednesday at 8:30am. Well, I can't take of anymore time from work without being written up. My boss has made it very clear to me that I have to schedule my appointments when I'm off from work. My boss is a real bitch that way. So I guess I won't being going to therapy anymore. I understand they have to have policies. We have policies where I work.  You know if I couldn't pay they wouldn't see me anyway so what was I suppose to do about that. I couldn't borrow money from anyone. All my friends and familyare broke too. Oh well, screw them I hated going anyway.