I know I talk a lot about keeping up your smile, if a dying man can keep on smiling then surely any living man could, its just you try to do things yourself, try to help yourself then the system tells you to go and swivel(forgive the obscenities) I just don't know what to do anymore. At first they tell you, that yes, part time work is acceptable, so I go and enrol in part time education then when I question them today at an appointment, they say, oh, I couldn't say, if it interferes with such and such... I just don't know what to do. I think the only thing I can see is just try to get some part time work, tell them to go they can go and swivel(sorry again) then I can do my part time education and a job. It would mean some sacrifices with regards to how often I see my girlfriend, but theres either that or one other option, I don't know if I could do it though... Riddles (a red upset face isn't strong enough, think absolute misery in physical form, thats me at the moment, this should be one of the happiest days in my life, I'm on the road to fix passed mistakes, then life throws stones at you, why does anyone bother... at all?