Whoa

Okay so the last couple of days have been really hectic. So far I'm doing okay and I got good news last night--my Tuesday class will primarily be held online so that's one less day of the week I'll have to make the 2 hour commute to campus.  So far I've been to two classes--they are definitely very demanding and because the third one has such an extensive reading list I'm sure it'll be rough too. I think I can do it though if I concentrate on being steady. I had an appt with my new p-doc on Monday as well and he was really nice and supportive. He's referred me to one of his staff members, a counsellor whose office is closer to my house. We'll see how that goes my first appt with her is next week.  I also have to get a letter from my np for the dmv who want to be sure I am safe to drive; annoying but I guess neccessary so I have an appt with her tomorrow to discuss it.  The car search is coming along okay. I'm hoping to see some good ones today. And find a reasonable deal. Unlike last time when I bought a lemon from a private seller and it only ran for 5 months before I had to junk it. What a waste of money that was and so disappointing.  At school it's a bit of a culture shock. I've never been around people with such heavy southern accents--it's a bit disconcerting. And most of my classmates did undergrad at the university which is something I've never experienced before. My other grad schools had people from all over only one time was there someone in the dept who'd gone to the same school for undergrad. Here it's all in-jokes and references I don't understand because they've al known each other in the undergrad experience and have a camraderie that I'm excluded from because of my background with more graduate experience from different places and I think a little because of my race. I'm trying to ignore that though.  Anyway, it's going okay so far and I'm being good about meds so I'm hopeful I can do this. I am okay today, a little stressed. I have been a bit anxious for the last couple of days but I think my body and mind are adjusting.  I decided to read An Unquiet Mind and I hope some of her insights will help me through the grad school process. I also heard from my lost internet friend. He said my email went to his spam folder so he didn't get it for a few days. We had an okay exchange. Not as in-depth as before but we're slowly building our friendship back I think.