Just an update.  I got off the phone with my lawyer.  He has  been able to set up some visitation time with me so that I can see my kids.  We are in the process of getting our final mediation set up to see if we can work anything out ot avoid a trial.  So far, it lookd like I wont get any over night visitation with my youngest until she is 3.  Love this backward state.  As far as the rest it is still up in the air.  I would love to have unsupervised visits with my kids now but but seening how I have none since Jan 1st I am happy with what I can get.  The golden rule in child custody cases is the one with the most gold wins.  I have lost my faith in many things as a result of this.  I dont think I will ever be able to trust a woman agian.  I know that I will never be able to look towards another for support ever again.  I surely have not trust in the courts most of all.  I dont know if I will ever be able to have a healthy relationship again.  The divorce is no the issue.  it is what a mother would do to her children to hurt her X.  I will let all who care know what happerns in the next few weeks if anything :(