No breath holding here.  My old highschool sweetie is still not over her x husband and does not want to risk hurting me again.  Well ok.... I had to work it out of her but at least I am sailing in a doomed rig.  Strange that I am not to concerned about it.  I am at the point that my skin is tougher than a battle ship.  My insides cans till get mushy but it will take alot more to get through than it use to.  My attitude I got nothing therefore I have got nothing to lose.Peace to all Yall