It has now been 5 days since I last spoke to my kids.  I get to see them for a couple of hours tomorrow.  That may be the last time for awhile.  No words can comfort a parent who misses there children.  I dont want to sound negative, but I am feeling rather hopeless.  The strangest thing is that I am not angry at my x, I just wish I could be with my kids.  I never understood why dads turn their backs on their own kids until now.  Not that I am going to, it is just easier to deal with the pain.  My love is so strong that i can not back away.  I have to fight for them eventhough it seems to be a losing battle.  People are not very helpful..."some day they will see what is going on and they will want to be with you."  Great!!! 5, 6, 10 years from now.  That is the wrong thing to say to a man who has centered his life around his kids.  I was always thrilled that my kids acted like me.  now they will act like the next guy that comes into my x's life.  There are no words of comfort only pain.  Dont be to quick to judge dads that run off.  I am being run off and If I give up the x will just tell the kids he did not want to be with you.  It is a damn shame that this is the way it has to be.  She is free to leave the kids at her parents house and go out as late as she wants on a school night and it is ok.  But if I have a single drink, even if the kids are not present, then I have a drinking problem.  There is not such thing as justice in this world.  There never has and never will.