Tonight went ok.  I was working two car deals and had to leave so I could see my kids.  I got pulled over on the way home but was able to talk myself out of it.  AFter I started playing with the kids I got a phone call from the dealership asking if I had a key to one of the cars I was selling.  I did.  So back to the dealership.  So I missed out on about 45 minutes of the 2 hours I got to spend with my kids.  I asked the x if I could see them more, she said no of course.  I am hoping that the my evaluation is all that I need to put an end to this outrage!!!.  I asked the x if I could buy lunch for all of us and then come back to myplace afterwards on new years day.  I got a tenative "OK."  AFter that she does not have to let me see the kids until the review hearing.  This had become the single hardest thing in the world for me.  I still had feelings for my x until she pulled this selfish stunt on the kids and I.  What feelings I had left for her are all but gone.  I guess my lord does have a plan for me.  I will get my kids back regardless of what hitler'e widow thinks.  My son was so cute, he wants me to take care of his shell collection.  He is hurting really bad.  I wish the x would see the damage she is causeing the kids and do what is right for them.  Why are men treated so badly in this country.  I pray for my x and hope that she will grow up and feel the pain she is causeing so many by her immature choices.  You can only play the courts for so long before they catch on.