Every thursday night i cant sleep and i feel really depressed today for first time in month and it has hit me hard, i could call in sick tommorow but i have never not gone to work because of depression and i dont think its a good time for me to start.I think under this illness is a strong person waiting to come out but it difficult i have great hope i can do it even though at the moment i feel like shit, my mums really ill at the moment i try to turn a blind eye to it and i sometimes blame her for it which makes me feel guilty.Not really sure what to do at the moment but sure this cloud will pass in a couple of days hopefully!