Today i went drinking with my friends i feel pretty ill now, i dont think i can handle alcohol that well anymore which is a good thing cause at least i know now im not dependant on it any more and it doesnt make me feel good so it isnt the friend that it used to be, i can see how it screws ppls lives up now and im so glad i have it under control myself a couple of years ago i used to use it for confidence now i dont bother i think i am who i am if u dont like me its not my fault im not gonna intoxicate myself to be happly anymore, i feel really rough now and i know im gonna feel really bad tomorrow, just a reminder to myself that this is only tempory things are hard now but ill come through this i should be proud that i have tried so hard all my life and these feelings when i feel weak dont always come! from within, I hope everyone is well and has a good weekend!