Not having a good time, think im gonna end things, everything seems to go wrong for me and even when it doesnt i feel like crap, i feel like im in a world of my own and nobody understands me, at least if i go out now i will be remembered as a 26 year old man who tried to do his best, i know it is being a bit of a coward what im gonna do but ive been feeling shit all my life i feel like im a let down of a son to my mum and my dad as i cant find any strength to live the life i want, i know if i didnt have this illness i could achieve anything i want but i do have it and nothing i do works i know that i should try and try and try but im tired i need to feel at peace and i cant do that here, ppl are gonna be angry at me for what im gonna do but they dont know the pain i suffer and how it feels to feel like this most of the time. Thanks for all the help i have got on this site from people its much appriciated i just cant find the strenght anymore!