I went to the pub with my mate steve and im very drunk even though ive only had 4 pints seems like i can get pissed without having to consume alot now, feeling depressed already ive been feeling ok all week but i knew if i was to drink alcohol that would change my state i feel good when im merry but the come down effects are very bad, its really hard trying to outsmart this illness i know ill be okay in a couple of days but the hell i go through after is nearly unbearable.I just want to feel ok not sure how to, one thing i know works for sure is excercise so i will do some tommorow.