Not feeling so great today.Went out for the date on Friday, we went to a pub by the Thames in Greenwich we sat and chatted for a couple of hours about her mostly, I tried to seem as confident as i could and think i done okay even though i felt abit unconfitable, im not sure why i feel like that i have been on tons of dates, at the end of the night we went out side with our drinks so she could smoke (smoking bans on in uk now) and walked by the river to the train station and got the train to lewisham, she waited with me till my bus came.I rang her up when i got home to see it she got home okay and if she would like to meet up again, she said she would.I text her today and she said she would like to meet this tuesday before she goes back home for a couple of weeks to lithuania i asked her if she wanted to go for a drink in lewisham and as yet havent recieved a reply, this was at 12 oclock its now 7 i tried to call but no answer. Maybe im being paranoid but this has happened to me so many times in the past where girls just dont respond ever again, not really sure why it happens! Im sure ill feel okay tommorow as i havent really lost any thing but just dents my confidence more really and who knows maybe she will contact me, ill just text her one more time tommorow if she doesnt respond and if she doesnt ill just move on again!Had a bad dream friday night, i was in this field with some people i know not sure who they were but just know that they were friends and we were hiding in some bushes and really scared because if anyone saw us we thought they would kill us, at one point a motor bike went past and we were all very scared and tryed to hide as best we could, the motor bike went past and we didnt get seen. I told the ppl i was with look we can either stay here hiding and acomplish nothing and starve or we can take a risk chances are we will be killed but we would die anyway if we stayed, they all decided to stay and i took the risk and left alone, then i woke up,Im not really a beliver in that dreams mean something but i think that might be my subconcious telling me to take more risks and the people that were hiding were actually a different part of me myself that might be why i cant remember who they are, so im definately going to book that parachute jump im really nervous about going as im an anxious person but i think that situation of going to a foreign country for the first time alone where they cant speak the language would be scary for even a confident person. Gonna listen to an anthony robbins tape and hopefully it will make me feel better, even writting on here makes me feel better. Hope everyones good Rich