My day today was quite good work went well and the day went quite quickly sometimes i love work and sometimes i feel that i have alot of respect from my collegues i dont feel like this very often but when i do its good and it makes me feel good in myself which is not something i feel alot.After work today a couple of my friends came and met me and we went to an open mic session which is where musicians can play there new songs my friend has written a few songs so he peformed them and he is really talented and i know that music is his passion and i really hope things go well for him, i have know him for 24 years since i moved to to this road i live in i was 2 when we met, he is like a brother to me and he is one of the most genuine people you will ever meet i like to think that we are similer in someways. Got a date for friday with the girl i met when i was out really looking forward to it but my success rate with women on dates this year is terrible so this time i will try and sort it out, not that i know what i done wrong before (with exception to the one where i texted the girl accendently, check out my journal for 23rd april!)Been speakin to a girl on here that says shes going to commit suicide if your reading this i seriously hope you changed your mind, i feel this way myself alot i even acted on it once but just know that these feelings will pass and that things can get better just seek help from where ever you can i am thinking of you and please if you read this let me know that u are okay cause when we spoke i was very impressed with how you have coped with things in your life i know u have the strength to do well for yourself!