Happy cause todays my day off and Im just going to relax as its the School holidays and work will be busy for the next few weeks, summers always the most stressful time at my work.Looking forward to pay day at the end of the month as im going to book the parachute jump in spain for september or october whenever i can get the time, Im very anxious about it as Ive never been abroad on my own and none of my friends can get away but if i keep on waiting on people then i will never achieve things ive gotta achieve and if this is something i have to do on my own then thats the way it is, Thing im scared of is getting from the airport to the place where im staying as i dont speak the language and im scared no one will understand me but im sure it wont work out like that, i swear i must be mad cause im not at all nervous about doing a jump but im scared about being lost in a foreign county but it is something i definately am going to do i havent saved up for the last few months to back out and im really excited about it more then anything for the last few years, depression is a real bastard along with anxiety but im damned if im going to let it rule my life, my brain alot of times makes me take the cowards way out which im going to put a stop to!  hope everyones having a good weekend Rich