Went out last night for my friends birthday, got really slaughtered, felt guilty because i left my mum at home and she was sick! I felt I needed to go and have a good time because i was really depressed, but the right thing for me to have done would have been stayed in, sometimes im really selfish.
I hate being a really anxious person its seems to me that it is a really unmanly thing to have but i cant help it and i dont think anyone thats got it can untill they seek help for it.
People see me as a wimp i think, but deep down i know im anything but(thank God)
Strange thing depression, I had a really good time last night and i still fell suicidal. But it will pass.
Hope you guys are all well and having a good sunday!
Rich
I hate being a really anxious person its seems to me that it is a really unmanly thing to have but i cant help it and i dont think anyone thats got it can untill they seek help for it.
People see me as a wimp i think, but deep down i know im anything but(thank God)
Strange thing depression, I had a really good time last night and i still fell suicidal. But it will pass.
Hope you guys are all well and having a good sunday!
Rich
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Alcohol is a depressent. You feel like dying because of the after effects it has on your brain. I felt like this everytime I drank the next morning. (It wasn\'t a \'hangover\' it was something more, mental thing, not physical.)
You choose alcohol over your mother. So yes, you may feel bad for not taking care of her, but the alcoholism took over.
Why do you care about what other people think of you? I have the same problem. Damn paranoia... Your opinion should matter not anyone elses. They aren\'t the ones who have to live everyday in your body, in your world.
I\'m actually from Canada. (you said the states lol)... It\'s 9:22am Sunday here. I hope you feel better today. You should do a bit of exercise and eat a good protein packed meal, pop a daily vitamin. Eat a tuna sandwich. Fish (even tuna) really helps me. Most people who suffer from depression aren\'t eating enough fish products. I take an omega happy pill, as well as I use all hemp products (yes the legal ones), that honestly have helped my mood (when i\'m not drinking and doing drugs). I\'m getting back on that again. I\'ve bee sober for 11 days now.
Have a great day. Good luck.