Feeling pretty down.  Don't seem to get many peaks in my rollercoaster...Sustained an injury this past weekend with no idea how long I'll be out of commission.  Could be a couple weeks, could be longer.  It's not exactly what I need right now... The affair that brought me here happened shortly after having knee surgery.   During that time I was having a very rough time strengthening my knee back up.  I couldn't do anything I really enjoyed.  Also couldn't go running with my wife, something she's really into.  Then she ends up having an affair w/someone she COULD go running with and play sports with.  I felt completely imasculated. I will always remember the way that felt.  No matter what I do to better myself I'll always be working against that ghost.  This is just the worst thing that can happen...  I need something good to happen for me for once... way too many downturns... She'll say she's there for me just like she pretended to be there when I was out w/the knee.  I've started eating unhealthy... it's just no use to keep trying... I'll never get an edge.